Teh Procrastinator's Lair

more than a one day challenge

2008-11-17T23:49:00.002-05:00

(to a friend)

I joined you today, and though I did not take a vow of silence, I took a fast from spoken words.

I am very proud of you and Cally and anyone else this inspires for making this step on your own, and having a reason for doing so.

I enjoy(ed) reading Cally's and your posts, genuinely and thoroughly. It makes me think, and it gives me suggestions for my own quest. I, however, probably will not post my own findings on facebook, though I keep a journal, but I write this message to disclose my reasons and findings to you. I think you will find them interesting. Share them and use them as you wish, and I will continue reading your posts. :)

Today, I began my observance of a fast from words. Today, I primarily focused on refraining from spoken words. It has begun as an experiment to see the effects and necessity of words in our culture. Today, I focused on kindness, slightly. Most of my day was spent getting used to not talking. And getting used to not being able to say, "thank you," and "bless you," and giving compliments. It drove me nuts by the end of it, mostly because it's a natural response for me to say those things.

I noticed how people generally accepted what I was doing, but a lot of them gave me a hard time about it. By the end of the day, I was so sick of hearing people ask what I could and couldn't do, and laughing at it, or giving me weird looks.

My teachers all thought it was interesting, but my Music Theory professor almost refused me from participating in group activity because I couldn't speak. I proved him wrong though, and finished my work correctly and faster than the rest of my group, and my class.

Christ College (the Honors College, basically English and Philosophy) was the most difficult to get through, especially because of what we were talking about. We're reading St. Augustine's "Confessions" - I recommend that to you, by the way - and the specific book we were on dealt with death and friendship and love. Somehow, I have a lot to say and have thought about these subjects frequently. And I realized that I couldn't voice any of it. Poop. I made it, though, barely.

Throughout the day, I realized how much more time I had to think. I realize that sometimes my words and speech make compelling arguments, but it's simply that. An argument. I dig holes with my words and make an intellectual or grandiloquent fool out of myself. I also realize how much time it takes to make an impulsive response. If you take a moment to think about what you are about to say, you miss your chance to give your input. Is this a good thing or a bad thing? I have yet to find out.

As I read your note, I felt the same about the majority of it. People are speaking to be heard... a lot of times people are being spoken at, not to, just waiting for someone to listen. Perhaps it's out of instinctive selfishness. Who knows.

I am with you, when you speak of how draining it is. I agree, entirely. I think that because it is nearly instinctive to speak, not-speaking is a more difficult task, and thus, it takes an abundance of energy to keep up the effort. I felt so many different emotions today that I lost count.

Tomorrow, I will move on to my next phase: fasting from spoken, and typed and written words. It will be WAY more difficult. Even today, I cheated a little, and wrote words. It's still written suitcases conveying meaning. I still make sounds. I'll admit too, that I accidentally slipped once or twice, and asked my roommate if she didn't mind me drying my hair or helping out my friend out with plates for her birthday cake.

Tomorrow though, I will not write words on paper. I hope I can do it. And now that I know I can make it 24 hours without spoken words, I may make my focus happiness tomorrow, with you. I will look at their eyes, and I will try and figure out what lies beneath those faces of the children, sweet children of a college campus.

I've learned, and I'm sure you're already figuring it out, that life is messy. And it only gets messier as one grows older. It shows in the people's faces. I want to see if there's a connection between what lies beneath those eyes and what is real, you know? Maybe for some people, it shows, but they are more positive, so it adds a bit of youth to their faces. And for someone else, the ones who let it affect them, they look more aged.

That's what I'm going to look for tomorrow, and as you can probably see, it's going to be a tough day.

Wish me luck; thank you, my darling for the support. I keep you, Kelly, and anyone else you have impacted with this study in my prayers.

I love you,
~ Hilary

p.s. (and you can show this to Kelly if you'd like)
"May the Lord bless you and keep you,
May the Lord make His face to shine upon you and be gracious to you,
May the Lord lift His countenance upon you, and give you His peace,
Forever and ever,
Amen."

confused and conflicted

2008-01-26T17:01:00.000-05:00

Disconnected.
Selfish.
Odd.
Bittersweet.

It's driving me nuts.
This is how I feel.

I feel weird.
Like I'm weird.
Like I just can't make up my mind.

Everything seems so shallow.
Some of it feels happy, yes.
But there's this small inclination in the back of my head
And it's whispering & it's telling me,
"It won't last."

Nothing I feel,
or see,
or hear,
or touch...

...will last.

And I don't know how to get rid of it.

I don't know what I want yet.
but when I do,
I'll let you know.

But for now,
I still love you.
I love you,
I love you,
I love you,
A whole, whole lot.

And I just want to close my eyes,
& remove all of the distractions.

I want to burrow myself into your arms,
And I want you to sing me a song.

"...don't change a hair for me,
Not if you care for me,
Stay, little Valentine, stay.
Please, stay.
Each day is Valentine's Day.
Each day is Valentine's Day."

---

And here's my song, not really anything except an accurate depiction of my mind at present:

Sweeter than Me
Aaron Sprinkle

Yesterday morning when you told me,
That you have never felt this lonely,
I saw the sadness in your eyes.
You told me how you feel disguised.

Confiding in me about the sleepless
nights, That you cannot seem to keep this
hurting buried in your dreams.
You're facing darkness twice as deep.

You're much sweeter than me by far.
You're much stronger than me,
You know you are.

Look up at the floral pattern curtains.
In picking them out, you were so certain.
But now there's indecision in your eyes.
You're finding comfort thinking twice.

But you're much sweeter than me by far.
You're much stronger than me,
You know you are.

By leaning on your window sill,
You show me all I need to know.
Whether you see summer, winter, or fall,
When I look at you, I see them all.

Sit down at the table with your jewelry,
Remembering each and every story.

But you're much sweeter than me by far.
You're much stronger than me by far.
You're much sweeter than me by far.
You're much stronger than me,
You know you are.

Wow.

2008-01-01T23:26:00.000-05:00

My boyfriend could possibly be...
the worst microwave popcorn maker...

...ever.

: ]
but i love him anyway.
^-^

oh, and happy 'o8, everyone.
hahahaha

I need you here tonight, just like the ocean needs the waves...

2007-12-06T23:25:00.000-05:00

i wish i could talk to him.
i wish i could know just what to say.

i wish i could say hi to you.
i wish i wouldn't be so shy.
i wish that i could speak.
i wish that you wouldn't be so harsh.

i wish that you would just be real.
i wish that you could just say something right.

i wish i had words.

i have no words left.
i have no words to say.
they're all gone.

i cannot speak.
i cannot move.
i cannot breathe.

i'm just fine.
just dandy and fine.
i just have no more words.

they're all gone...

The Ocean
~ Mae ~

Am I alone in this?
Never a night where I could sleep myself 'til day.
We must try to figure it out, figure it out.
It won't be that easy; we lost it somehow.

You come over unannounced,
Silence broken by your voice in the dark.
I need you here tonight, just like the ocean needs the waves.

Oh, the night becomes the space that's somewhere in between
What I feel and what I'm told.
Sitting on the shoreline trying to figure it out, figure it out,
To find out the meaning and reach it somehow.

You come over unannoucned,
Silence broken by your voice in the dark.
I need you here tonight just like the ocean needs the waves.
Fall around me now
Like stars that shine and brighten the way.
I need you here tonight just like this night, it needs the rain.

The seasons have changed,
The wind, it blows colder now, colder now.
The clouds are raised,
The rain, it falls harder now, all around.

You come over unannounced, (will you come over now?)
Silence broken by your voice in the dark.
I need you here tonight just like the ocean needs the waves. (I need you here tonight, the sky, it rains)
Fall around me now (so fall around me now)
Like stars that shine and brighten the way.
I need you here tonight just like tonight needs the rain. (I need you here tonight, the sky, it rains)

You come over unannounced, (will you come over now?)
Silence broken by your voice in the dark.
I need you here tonight just like the ocean needs the waves. (I need you here tonight, the sky, it rains)
Just like the stars that fall around me now.

Oh...

...the closest to Heaven that I'll ever be

2007-11-28T14:57:00.000-05:00

I went home sick today.
I got home, went to my room, shut the door.
I turned my music on.
And listened.
And I began to think. And think. And think.

And I realized that it's times like last night and days like today that make me never want to move on.
I want to stay right here.
And soak everything up.

Everything is so perfect.
Even when my mom and I fight.
Even when I come to vocal jazz crying.
Even when I am sick.

God has blessed me incredibly.
With a mom who forgives, and lets go of any grudge.
With friends who care for me and my well-being.
With health that's better than those less fortunate.
With life.
And intelligence.

I went to bed last night and the song, Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls began to play.
And I just listened.
Like I did today.
And I am so thankful for those moments,
And those songs,
That make a moment so fitting
To everything rushing through my mind.

Today was a good day.
Not like a "he-just-gave-me-roses" good day.
Not an "I-aced-that-math-test good" day.
But an "everything-just-went-right" good day.
I haven't had a day like this in a very long time.
I usually feel like as soon as I wake, I hit the ground running,
And continue to do so until my head hits my pillow at night.
But today, oh,
Today was different.
It's like I woke with a refreshed perspective.
Or a more grateful attitude.
Or something...

But it's not like superficial good days.
Or materialistic good days.
The kind where one is boisterous and happy.

...

It's that kind of day where you sit, and a small, contented smile cracks open on your face.
And you want to cry,
Because you realized how bless you are...
And how in less than six months,
All of your blessings will start their new lives.
And all of your surroundings will change.

And everything begins anew.

I am happy right now.
I realized that I'm genuinely happy.
And I wish that this appreciative happiness could never leave.

I recently read a friend's blogpost and they mentioned a memory.
And they said they wish they could revisit that moment.
And stop time.
I, too, wish time could be suspended.
And every genuine thing that happens, I wish could be photo-captured.

I was thinking, once again, about high school and the transition to college.
I've got my college of choice.
There, I've got the person I want to be with forever, too.
I've got everything I need.
I said I was "so ready" to be done with high school.
But it was days like today that made me want to stay with these people.
I love them.
I need them.
They're amazing and talented.
God individually created each and every one of them.
They are precious.

And I don't want to find out what happens at the end of the story.
I do, but I'm sheepish.
I have some sort of idea of where my life is headed.
But I want to see the same people I've grown with for years, grow even more.
I want to watch them take different paths and see them make something of their gifts.
But I don't know who I'll know and won't know.
And who I'll meet and won't meet.
And while I'm excited to have a new family, at the same time, I'm terrified of the next chapter...

Just when we thought we were ready to leave...
Just when we're about to let go...
We reach out and claw for what we just let go of.
We grasp it.
And we cling onto it for dear life.

I think there's a time and place for everything.
And I think that our time to let go will call,
And there's no doubt, it's coming soon.
But right now, just relax.
Don't try to leave so quickly.
Hold my hands.
Listen.

I am happy.
I realized that I am genuinely...

...

...happy...

: DDD

2007-10-28T00:13:00.000-04:00

so we've got two naaaaaames:

^-^

Issac Jacob

and

Ana Marie

because

those names are so perfect

and

we're really strange. lol

Future babies.
Yays!

x.x

2007-10-17T21:37:00.000-04:00

i hate this class...

...probably more than i've ever hated anything in my entire life.

...and that's a lot.

[[ sigh ]]

<3

2007-10-09T17:55:00.001-04:00

holy wow.

i've almost dated you for two whole years...

it's amazing.

Ahaha cute.

2007-09-30T21:28:00.000-04:00

When The Sun Hits
~ the kid who must not be named ~

When the light rises and darkness falls,
The heat of the brightness starts to crawl.
And it rises and rises until it reaches your toes.
And the problems go away for the one you know.

And that sun on your face, it just melts away.
When the light hits your face, and you feel it.
Until you feel the problems just soothe away,
You can be glad for a bit, when the sun hits.

Then you can feel all the happiness go, bye,
When you see that friend start to cry.
You help and you help as much as you can.
Although she doesn't listen to you, like she can.

Then the sun is gone from an upsetting cloud.
And you lose all hope from the sight and sound.
The hopes and fears go rising about.
Until you get up and shout!

So you keep up the jokes and you pray for a smile.
Hoping that joy will come in a while.
More and more you try but there isn't a chance,
Until the smile is up and can dance.

And that sun on your face, it just melts away.
When the light hits your face, and you feel it.
Until you feel the problems just soothe away,
You can be glad for a bit, when the sun hits.

Then the sun is gone from an upsetting cloud,
And you lose all hope from the sight and sound.
The hopes and fears go rising about,
Until you get up and shout!

And that sun on your face, it just melts away.
When the light hits your face, and you feel it.
Until you feel the problems just soothe away,
You can be glad for a bit...

And that sun on your face, it just melts away.
When the light hits your face, and you feel it.
Until you feel the problems just soothe away,
You can be glad for a bit, when the sun hits.

When the light rises, and darkness falls.

----

It's not who you think it is.

It's not Joshhhhh.
Can you guess who it is?

oh my goodness, i love this kid
^-^

I hope he asks that girl...
: D
I knowwww whhhoooo iiittt isss.

despicable

2007-09-24T18:04:00.000-04:00

you know was utterly bugs me?

...

killjoys.
who wants to bring someone down from a level of happiness to theirs?

x.x

it simply ruins the moment.
gahh.

ahahaha it's such a cute song!!

2007-09-23T23:08:00.000-04:00

"One in a Million"
Hannah Montana (Miley Cyrus)

How did I get here?
I turned around,
And there you were.
I didn't think twice or rationalize,
'Cuz somehow I knew
That there was more than just chemistry.
I mean, I knew you were kind of into me,
But I figured it's too good to be true.

I said, "Pinch me, where's the catch this time?
I can't find a single cloud in the sky.
Help me before I get used to this guy."

They say that good things take time,
But really great things happen in the blink of an eye.
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one.
I can't believe it,
You're one in a million.

All this time I was looking for love,
Trying to make things work.
They weren't good enough.
Til I thought I'm through,
Said, "I'm done."
Then stumbled into the arms of the one.

You're making me laugh about the silliest stuff,
Say that I'm your "diamond in the rough."
When I'm mad at you,
You come with your velvet touch.
Can't believe that I'm so lucky.
I have never felt so happy,
Every time I see that sparkle in your eyes.

They say that good things take time,
But really great things happen in the blink of an eye.
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one.
I can't believe it,
You're one in a million.

All this time I was looking for love,
Trying to make things work.
They weren't good enough.
Til I thought I'm through,
Said, "I'm done."
Then stumbled into the arms of the one.

I said, "Pinch me, where's the catch this time?
Can't find a single cloud in the sky.
Help me before I get used to this guy."

They say that good things take time,
But really great things happen in the blink of an eye.
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one.
I can't believe it,
You're one in a million.

They say that good things take time,
But really great things happen in the blink of an eye.
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one.
I can't believe it,
You're one in a million.
One in a million.
You're one in a million.

-----

^-^
tee hee.

<3
u,

~ chillie ~

Update and a Song to Set the Mood

2007-09-06T16:18:00.000-04:00

mmmmmm.

^-^

I'm in a good mood right now.
whooo.

things that are good:

- not in the fall play = more time to do homework
- Panera
- Josh && me (I visited him last Monday)
- faster movement in music theory
- good workout in Early Bird
- I'm going to homecoming
- a good idea for a group homecoming dinner
- songs for A Cappella
- Wind Symphony has a good beginning sound
- we're playing higher grade music
- I get to conduct in the stands at football games

things that are not so good (and most are just plain really, really annoying):

- not in the fall play...
- english teachers just don't understand (wtf )
- pointless busywork (other than office helping)
- music theory (the class, not so much the teacher or the actual subject matter)
- the kids who are constantly tardy
- people who can't alphabetize
- it keeps raining
- marching band (stupid rain )
- I'm going to homecoming by myself
- Josh isn't here.

Otherwise, things are pretty peachy and Senior year is going great.

huzzah.

...
hmmm.

Here's a song.

I'm Taking You With Me
~ Relient K ~

I made a habit
Of never making promises
That aren't easy to keep.
And there you have it,
From now I'll make you one that is
To keep you here with me.

But as every second that goes by,
I feel it's just a waste of time
If I'm not with you.

If home is where the heart is
Then my home is where you are (my home is where you are).
It's getting oh so hard
To spend these days
Without my heart.

So I'm taking you with me
Anywhere that I
Could ever wanna be.
For the rest of my life,
I want you there with me.
And if there ever comes a time,
When I should have to leave,
I hope you know that I
I'm taking you with me.

And so I'm tryin'
To hold it all together and
Make it through the day.
When I'm just dyin'
To drop it all and take your hand
So we can run away.

And all the miles and the hours
That seem to endlessly devour
The time that I could be with you.

If home is where the heart is
Then my home is where you are (my home is where you are).
It's getting oh so hard
To spend these days
Without my heart.

So I'm taking you with me,
Anywhere that I
Could ever I wanna be.
For the rest of my life,
I want you there with me.
And if there ever comes a time,
Where I should have to leave,
I hope you know that I
I'm taking you with me.

Every second that goes by
Is one more second of my life.
And it couldn't be more clear
That I would die without you here.

And every second that goes by
Is one more second of my life.
And it couldn't be more clear
I'm dying without you here.

Yeah every second that goes by (yeah every second that goes by)

So I'm taking you with me,
Anywhere that I
Could ever I wanna be.
For the rest of my life
I want you there with me.
And if there ever comes a time,
Where I should have to leave,
I hope you know that I
I'm taking you with me.

Celui pour toi, mon amour.

<3

chillie

The First Day of School

2007-08-29T18:34:00.000-04:00

Senior year, it is.

Today was the kick off for the final installment of my teenage life. Wow.
Pretty intense.

So intense that Little Reifsteck and my brother and I went to Chili's for a post-first-day-of-school snack.
w00t!

Well, I've got to get to writing!
Huzzah.

<3

chillie

Oh...

2007-08-22T00:37:00.000-04:00

Here's some advice:

DON'T talk to your friends in a slightly flooded park after 11:00 p.m. curfew.

The police will ask for your name and birthday.

...

hahahaha... my love for Oswego.

xD.

Enjoy your days.

~ Hilary

I Was Difficult to See, But You Picked Me

2007-08-16T13:19:00.000-04:00

You Picked Me
~ A Fine Frenzy ~

One, two, three...
Counting out the signs, we see
The tall buildings,
Fading in the distance,
Only dots on a map.

Four, five, six...
The two of us a perfect fit.
You're all mine, all mine.
And all I can say
Is you blow me away.

Like an apple on a tree,
Hiding out behind the leaves,
I was difficult to reach,
But you picked me.

Like a shell upon a beach,
Just another pretty piece,
I was difficult to see,
But you picked me.
Yeah, you picked me.

So softly,
Rain against the windows.
And the strong coffee,
Warming up my fingers
In this fisherman's house.

You got me.
You searched the sand,
And climbed the tree,
And brought me back down.
And all I can say
Is you blow me away.

Like an apple on a tree,
Hiding out behind the leaves,
I was difficult to reach,
But you picked me.

Like a shell upon a beach,
Just another pretty piece,
I was difficult to see,
But you picked me.
Yeah, you picked me.

Ohh.

Like an apple on a tree,
Hiding out behind the leaves,
I was difficult to reach,
But you picked me.

Like a shell upon a beach,
Just another pretty piece,
I was difficult to see,
But you picked me.
Yeah, you picked me.

Like an apple on a tree,
Hiding out behind the leaves,
I was difficult to reach,
But you picked me.

Like a shell upon a beach,
Just another pretty piece,
I was difficult to see,
But you picked me.
Yeah, you picked me.

And I just don't want to say goodbye.

2007-08-11T19:12:00.000-04:00

It dawned on me the other day that the likelihood of seeing most of just this past year's graduates ever again is very slim...

It made me really sad.
I wish I never had to say goodbye.
I'm not ready to detach from the world I'm apart of and dive right into a brand new existence with unfamiliar people, new places, undiscovered things.

I'm not ready to get ready.
Maybe that's what senior year is for. Doing the last minute things you forgot to do on the way. The final test. The last bit of time to be a kid before you have to act like an adult and make decisions for you're future.

That's a lot of responsibility. I don't know if I can handle that yet. Planning the next sixty years of my life - in four to eight years?

...

This is what senioritis is: extensive excitement and anticipation to leave so that it won't hurt as much when the time comes.

Honest to goodness, I'm scared to grow up.

... it's not like I forgot to do anything beforehand.
I just don't want to say goodbye.

I have one more year left. One. And it seemed like yesterday that I was only a freshman, scared in the same way I am now. But it seemed as less intense of a transition - more familiar - only because I knew that the next year I was to see the same faces. And as the groups and cliques changed, so did the people. We all grew together - we all helped each other through it.

But I think that our class is different - our circumstances - because of the way we grew up together. Freshmen and Sophomores in one big, scary school - all going through the sudden shock of a change... We had to stick together: it was the only way to get by.

That's why it's going to be weird moving on. We are related. We all know what it feels like. We walked down the same hallways - had the same teachers. We all shared the experience.

And even though it's going to be difficult saying goodbye to the ones that are close, it feels even more awkwardly depressing saying goodbye to the ones who you may not have spoken to often - the ones who were always just there in high school. You may or may not have even been friends with them, but their presence just added to the aura of the experience.

It makes me realize how much I just don't want to leave.

Yet at the same time, I can't wait to get out of here.
I'm just not ready to let go of the things that have gotten me through high school - that glance, that sheepish smile... that wave. that hello. that conversation.

It's the small things that have helped me.
And the big things too.
Everything...

... these are my feelings - and I don't think that I'm alone.

... Guys, the job is almost done.
It's time take high school head-on.
Senior year, here I come.

Who knows when I'll be set and ready to go.

Sometimes you simply just have to jump.

...

All right.
Here, take my hand.
You ready?

...

One.
Two.
Three.

Whoooo.

2007-08-07T16:29:00.000-04:00

I have returned!!

From nothing really, except maybe, a really hectic week.

Ben's home from the hospital (he came home on Friday), and he's doing fine. He has a mild form of Moyamoya, a rare Japanese disease that affects an artery in his brain. It's usually treated by a surgery of some sort, but his is so exceptionally mild that they didn't choose that path.

Otherwise, things are going well....
Today is my second day at Panera.

Josh and I are fantastic.

Um....

I had CiCi's today....

....

Oh! And I talked to Mrs. Hoinkes about my schedule for next year. There were a few large gaps in it, and we fixed them today...

Here's my schedule!!!

Marking Period - Block - Class - Teacher

Semester 1
1234 - 0 - Early Bird Strength & Speed Training - Hillman
12 - 1 - English 4 AP - Hubbard
1234 - 2B - Wind Symphony - Leeb
1234 - 2S - A Cappella Choir - Barsch
1 - 3 - Music Theory 1 - Barsch
2 - 3 - Music Theory 2 - Barsch
1 - 4 - Dean's Office Helper - N/A
2 - 4 - Internship - Leeb

Semester 2
1234 - 0 - Early Bird Strength & Speed Training - (someone new)
3 - 1 - Consumer Education - ????
4 - 1 - Teacher's Assistant (Choir) - Barsch
1234 - 2B - Wind Symphony - Leeb
1234 - 2S - A Cappella Choir - Barsch
34 - 3 - Physics Honors - Dutton
34 - 4 - Music Theory AP - Barsch

----

So it's all right... I'm pretty confident about it. Hopefully, I'll be able to juggle Marching Band, work, and possibly drama once school starts, but I'll have to wait and see.

That's pretty much the gist of my life, as of yet.
[[ shrugs ]]

Mehhhh.

Have a happy day!

~ Hilary
( who knows when another post will come )

Thanks for the continuous support...

2007-07-29T18:43:00.000-04:00

Here's the story, or as much that I am permitted to put into words...

Benjamin (Joshua's (my boyfriend's) brother) has been sick the past week.
He has Down Syndrome, so his immune system is weaker than yours or mine.

As usual, he had a very high fever. He was prescribed medicine to help alleviate and break the fever. A few days later, he awoke to a fever so high that he was convulsing. Also, he could not move his right hand very well.

Taken to the E.R., the doctor's diagnosis is pneumonia in the upper parts of both lungs.
He's at Children's Memorial Hospital in downtown Chicago with Mr. and Mrs. Reifsteck currently.
He MAY have suffered a stroke, but a minor one at that, as he is fully responsive and can move his entire body, including his right hand. He only cannot pick things up.
The doctor's are continuing with tests and the like, and they made the decision to have him in the pediatric ICU to keep an eye on him and his brain.

After the progress made from last night into today, I already see God's hand on Benjamin's body. Thanks to your continuous prayer and support, we can see the blessing and miracle that God has already begun.

Please continue praying for Benjamin's healing, the Reifsteck family, and for the doctors' wisdom to bring Benjamin back to full health.

----

In other news, I surprised Joshua to a day in The Windy City and a Marc Broussard concert at the House of Blues on Friday. He was, needless to say, incredibly surprised and had a blast, I'm sure. We took the train, ate Ed Debevic's, and saw Mr. Barsch at the concert. It was so much fun.

Yesterday, I had senior pictures at Photography By Feltes. They felt very good. I hope they turn out great. Josh was one of my props. ^-^
Then we got a free lunch because Allied Bank had its grand opening.
And we had Panera for dinner. And I got a discount. Huzzah.

And we watched the movie, Miss Potter, a movie based on Beatrice Potter's life (The Tales of Peter Rabbit).

Yay.

I also saw The Fantasticks today with Josh.

It was so bizarre.
But it grew on me.
And now I love it.

^-^

And to brighten our spirits, A Shade of Difference is playing at Greenleaf Coffee House today, and I'm sitting here listening.

Well, sorry to bore you.
Thank you SO MUCH for the prayers!

I love you.

---

When he holds me close,
&& I can hear his heartbeat,
&& kiss his lips, I realize,
this is where I want to be,
&& this is how I always want to feel

XD

2007-07-27T00:51:00.000-04:00

I'm going crazy.

...

Hm.
What should I do?

[[ dances away ]]

I feel like Edward from Cowboy Bebop. Free. Wispy. Floating.

Whoooo.

....

I should be enjoying these times, when I am young.

Enjoying them before I get busy.
Before I have to enter the real world.
Before I get to pretend again.

After all, that's what summer is for, isn't it?

...will you share your life with me, for the next ten minutes?

All Set for Senior Pics

2007-07-22T00:14:00.000-04:00

I got my clothes.
And I got my hair cut.

Tomorrow's our double date with Caitlyn and her boyfriend.

sweet.

Noodles & Co. and Jamba.

yay.

well,
goodnight.

<3
chillie

j000000000rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrBBBBBBBBB

2007-07-18T16:43:00.001-04:00

I work at Panera!

w00t!

=)

let me dance with you?

=D

may I change your world?

=P

I like this verse. And this part of a IM convo. And Josh. =D

2007-07-17T22:56:00.000-04:00

"Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away." ~ James 4:14

----

Ahh.... Deanna, you make me laugh. It's nice catching up with you.

theregoesahobo: so any cute boys in your life?
Dlvvanzor: Ha.
Dlvvanzor: I dont even have a life to have cute boys IN
theregoesahobo: yeah, me neither
theregoesahobo: kind of works perfectly with josh then
Dlvvanzor: You have a bf. You're not allowed.
Dlvvanzor: yeah
theregoesahobo: because he has no life either
Dlvvanzor: lol
Dlvvanzor: spend the rest of your not-lives together!
theregoesahobo: yep
theregoesahobo: pretty much

---

Teeheeheehee.

Check this out, more pictures!

Just Because I Can...

2007-07-16T14:10:00.001-04:00

These are very obnoxious, but hey, it's okay to be annoying every once in a while...

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you or have you ever had a crush on me?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?

Guess Who's Back....???

2007-07-14T18:22:00.000-04:00

Sun-cooked me!

SWC was so much fun.
It was the week of my life.

And I never thought that week could have been replaced.
...

Well, I suppose it wasn't really replaced.
That was the best week of my life in a different sense.

Anyway. Thinking out loud.

Yeah.
I'm pretty perturbed right now.

I don't really want to complain so I'll just say this:
I'm so sick and tired of being second class compared to him. Compared to everyone.

Am I really that bad?
Where does all the energy go?
The potential?

Why can't I be matched up with what I'm truly talented at?

Merrrrrrrg.

I'm really kind of more than enough annoyed right now.

...

Feel free to leave comments!

^-^;

2 days. 16 hours. 14 minutes. And counting down...

2007-07-05T23:13:00.001-04:00

[[ excitement ensues ]]

Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer.
Man, it was AWESOME!!!!

Smith Walbridge is coming.
Cannot wait.

Ahhhh!

I love you, and everything you do.

<3

chillie

Happy 4th of July!

2007-07-04T18:26:00.000-04:00

This is what I did today:

~ woke up ~
~ took a shower ~
~ learned how to grill chicken ~
~ grilled said chicken ~
~ help Josh make chicken quesadillas ~
~ attempted to grill hamburgers ~
~ had an epic duel with the grill ~
~ prevailed in the epic battle between the grill and me, saving the world of hamburgers as we know it ~
~ then bequeathed my trusty weapon - my spatula - to my dear mother, a warrior of greater calibur than I, along with my crazy mad style pattie-flipping, grill-conquering powers ~
~ That, and I wanted to help Josh ~
~ grilled hotdogs ~
~ ate chicken quesadillas ~
~ drank energy drink, Bawls ~
~ watched Fantastic Four ~
~ left for Josh's house ~
~ went to Meijer's on the way to Josh's house ~
~ went to Josh's house ~
~ ate Rainbow Twizzlers and gummy Lifesavers at Josh's house ~
~ watched t.v. ~
~ went on the internet ~

And this is what our plans are for later:

~ eat a yummy homemade meal at Josh's house ~
~ eat a yummy dessert that Josh's mommy made ~
~ lay around and let the yummy food digest ~
~ meet my family at the Lowe's on Orchard Rd. for Aurora fireworks ~
~ walk to IMSA to watch said fireworks ~

The fireworks, being that it doesn't rain prior to...

And tomorrow...

~ hang out with Joshua ~
~ go to the movies and see Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer, Transformers, or Ratatouille. ~

Yep.

And then, I'm off to St. Louis for my cousin's wedding reception, and then DRUM MAJOR CAMP!!!

w00t!

4 DAYS.
'Til Smith-Walbridge.

I'm excited.

Yup, yup.

Have a very safe and wonderful FOURTH of JULY!
=)

Many loves.

<3

chillie

I'm not dead, no! I'm still alive.

2007-07-02T17:53:00.000-04:00

^ that's on the back of my iPod ^

^-^;

Please talk to me.
~Hilary

You're so handsomely beautiful.

2007-06-27T23:38:00.000-04:00

Is there anything else that I need to say?

Out to Lunch... Be Back Never. ^-^

2007-06-26T17:10:00.000-04:00

I love that boy.

He's amazing.

---

Today, we picnicked at our super secret silent spot. We had tasty turkey sandwiches, with mayonnaise, lettuce, and cheese. Tostido's tortilla chips ("with a hint of lime" flavored). Fruit salad. And to top it off, iced tea. =)

It was still sunny at the time, too!

A little too muggy for our taste, we headed over to Old Navy to begin our (well, my) shopping extravaganza! We had waited to spend some time together so we could travel to Old Navy and spend the gift card he gave to me on my birthday.

And we finally got to.

It was entertaining, too... seeing him help shop with me...

... oh my goodness, he's the perfect boy ...
Not even kidding.

But anyway, because everything on clearance was too big or too small or too wintry or too ugly, we decided to start out in the flip-flop section of the store.

That's probably not a smart idea.
I love flip-flops.

They were super cheap, so I got one pair and still had enough for an article of clothing.
I've been looking for a cute zip-up hoodie, and I was hoping I could find one.

And I did!

I got a white zip-up that's thinner, so I can wear it in the summertime and wintertime.

=)

Happiness!

=)

After I made my purchases, I ended up with $1.87 left to put in my wallet as cash... It's always a good thing.

Then we made an excursion to Kohl's because his parents had given me a $25 gift card for my birthday as well.

I like clothing.
^-^

While we were there, Josh gave me this "camp" bracelet that he made with his kids at the YMCA camp he works at.

It's cute.
I won't take it off.
=)

Anyway, I found these really cute Soffee shorts that were green and had cherries all over them. I almost bought them, but they didn't have a size that wouldn't shrink in the wash.

I did find some navy shorts though, and I've been looking for some for a while now. They were just the right price and size and everything.

At the end of my spree, I bought those navy shorts, these green pebbly bracelets, and some cute cloth capris. They're white and have blue seagulls on them (like Aeropostle-type birds).

So I got my summery clothing, and it all looks super adorable.
And it matches me perfectly.

After all of that, Josh and I ended our afternoon with a trip to Starbucks Coffee. I got a Raspberry Mocha Frappuccino and it was delightful... and succulent. ^-^

I also got an application to work there, because I am going to save my money for an Apple laptop like no other.

=)

So, needless to say, after all that wasted space above, I had a great afternoon.

---

Finally, Pastor Tim Dilena is speaking at IDT tomorrow night. That makes me super excited!
Josh even asked if he could go to church with me, and that makes me even more happy.

I'm finally getting something right.

And that is the best thing I could ever have.

Happy day!

<3

chillie

See, I'm Smiling! =D

2007-06-25T17:55:00.000-04:00

...

And it's all because of you...

...

Two Ponderable Questions

2007-06-19T23:39:00.000-04:00

But first!

Grades!!
Hot off the presses!

...

hee hee hee.
Maybe, but not really.

Here goes:

2006 - 2007 School Year (Junior Year)

Semester 1
Class Teacher Grade
Early Bird - Jurkovich - A
Analysis Honors - Gossett - B+
Wind Symphony - Leeb - A
A Cappella Choir - Barsch - A
Theater Arts - Fruits - A
U.S. History Honors - Leubner - B

Semester 2
Class Teacher Grade
Early Bird - Jurkovich - A
Spanish 4 - Lopez - A-
Wind Symphony - Leeb - A+
A Cappella Choir - Barsch - A+
AP U.S. Gov - Hurt - A+
English 3 Accelerated Honors - Query - B

GPA Junior Year: 4.0588
Cumulative GPA: 4.1020

Class rank: 15/429
And that, my friends, is the top 3.5% of my class.

I'm so happy.
And thankful.

I worked hard for that 15th rank.
Junior year is the hardest.
Don't slack off.

[[ sigh ]]
[[ of ]]
[[ relief ]]

....

Kay.
So the real point of my post.

Here are two questions that make me laugh out loud:

number [[ one ]] :
"Once you're in Heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?"

&&&'

number [[ two ]] :
"If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?"

That one really got me.

^-^
Enjoy.

<3
chillie

---

RD Week starts TOMORROW!

=D

This one's for Josh.

2007-06-18T09:14:00.001-04:00

I Y Q 2

=]]

=) Happy Time! =)

2007-06-13T13:52:00.000-04:00

My neck is charred.
My face is red.
My arms are tan.
My legs are burned.
My hands are sweaty.
My back is sore.
My shoulders are aching.
My knees are cracking.
My ankles are swollen.
My feet have cramps.

Ahhhhhhhhh.......

It sure smells like marching band!

And that's the way I want to spend my summer: marching.

It's the life.

=]]

---

Heads up, marching band!

OEHS MB H2O Fight!
Today. @ OEHS.
Come at 1:30 p.m.
We'll start at 2:00 p.m.
Bring water balloons, launchers, squirt guns, slip 'n slides, whatever!
Water will NOT be provided. (sorry, we don't have a hose!)

I can't go, but please. Go. Enjoy yourself after marching all morning on a VERY hot day!

---

IDT starts tonight.

omg.

I'm so excited!

---

Last night was pretty much the best, too.
Brother Josh, Caitlyn (who's been staying with us practically the entire week), Josh, and I went to Downtown Naperville.

I had Noodles & Company for the very first time.
I had Wisconsin Mac & Cheese.
It was very, very, very delicious.

Then we went to Jamba Juice.
And I got a Orange-A-Peel drink.
And guess what else?
I'm such a nerd.

Jamba Juice Orange Dream Machine scented chap stick.
SPF: 15.

I'm a weirdo, I know.

Then we walked on the Riverwalk.
And Josh was cute.
And I got to be held by him.
It made me happy.

But anyway.
I have to get going.
Just updating to update.
And broadcast that everything's good and dandy.
Pretty much yeah.

=)

=D

^-^

If you could only see how this has affected me, then maybe you'd understand.

2007-06-12T14:31:00.000-04:00

But I don't blame you for hating me.
I can't blame you for hating me.

I hurt you.

...
You Know Where To Find Me
~ Matthew West ~

I saw your sky fall down today.
Suddenly turned from blue to gray,
Till one by one, the raindrops turned to tears upon your face.
Wish there was something I could do,
Wish I could ease the pain from you.

But I've never felt so helpless.

It's like you're drowning right in front of me,
And I'm reaching out,
But you can't see.
There's something holding onto you so tight.
So I guess this is all I'll say to you tonight...

And it's my fault.

Still...

If you ever need me,
You know where to find me.
I will be waiting,
Where I've always been.
If you ever need me,
You know where to find me.
I have never left you,
I'm where I've always been.

Right by your side.
I'm right by your side...

I'm in as much disbelief as you are.
I can't believe that I did that.
I can't believe that I made that choice.

But, what's done is done.

I will have to live with the consequences.
Nothing I say or do can take regret away.

If I could, I would erase that moment.
I would have made a better decision.

I've failed you one more time.
And I have no more extra continues left.

It's okay.
It's going to be all right.
God will make it better.

...The whole wide world is on [my] back.
And the strength [I] need is the strength [I] lack.
...[I'm] in a crowd but all alone,
...[I] can't stay here, but [I] can't go home.
...[I] can't answer all the "why's".
...[I'm] too tired to reach that high.

[But I] need to remember:

If [I] ever need Him,
[I] know where to find Him.
He will be waiting,
Where He's always been.

If [I] ever need Him,
[I] know where to find Him.
He has never left [me],
He's where He's always been.

He's right by [my] side.
He's right by [my] side
He's right by [my] side.

And I'm so blessed because I still get you.

I love you.

And I'm sorry.

X.x

2007-06-11T21:02:00.000-04:00

Darn fortune cookie.

= S

>.<

= /

Ouch.

---

I never meant to do that, I promise!

Fortune Cookie

2007-06-10T23:06:00.000-04:00

" You will always get what you want through your charm and personality."

I don't think it's that easy...

...at least the Chinese food was tasty.

God, please - don't take the [boy].

2007-06-07T13:21:00.001-04:00

This song is the cutest song I have ever heard.
I love it.
I love it.
I love it!

Enjoi...

Don't Take The Girl
~ Tim McGraw ~

Johnny's daddy was taking him fishing,
When he was eight years old.
A little girl came through the front gate,
Holding a fishing pole.
His dad looked down and smiled.
Said, "We can't leave her behind."
"Son, I know you don't want her to go,
But someday, you'll change your mind."

And Johnny said,
"Take Jimmy Johnson,
Take Tommy Thompson,
Take my best friend Bo-.
Take anybody that you want,
As long as she don't go.
Take any boy in the world...
Daddy, please - don't take the girl."

Same old boy,
Same sweet girl,
Ten years down the road.
He held her tight and kissed her lips,
In front of the picture show.
Stranger came and pulled a gun,
Grabbed her by the arm.
Said, "If you do what I tell you to do,
There won't be any harm."

And Johnny said,
"Take my money,
Take my wallet,
Take my credit cards.
Here's the watch that my grandpa gave me,
Here's the keys to my car.
Mister, give it a whirl...
But please - don't take the girl."

Same old boy,
Same sweet girl,
Five years down the road.
There's gonna be a little one,
And she says it's time to go.
Doctor says, "The baby's fine,
But you'll have to leave,
'Cause his momma's fading fast."

And Johnny hit his knees,
And there he prayed,
"Take the very breath you gave me,
Take the heart from my chest.
I'll gladly take her place if you'll let me.
Make this my last request:
Take me out of this world...
God, please - don't take the girl."

Johnny's daddy was taking him fishing,
When he was eight years old.

----

It doesn't feel like summer yet.

[[ sigh ]]

And he's the God-send of a lifetime.

2007-06-05T23:12:00.000-04:00

This boy is what keeps me going every day.

i u

sorry for being icky,

<3

chillie.

Not DM, but just as great!

2007-06-04T18:21:00.000-04:00

OEHS Leadership Team: Flute section leader.

*shrugs*

Only because I haven't been in MB for that long.
'S understandable.

=))

And the best part is that I still get to go to SWC DM Camp.
Only because he wants me to learn how to conduct for my future, and for my internship with him 2nd semester.
^.^

I can't wait.

And now I sit here, feeling not disappointed, but feeling grateful. That I get the honor of still being a leader, and getting to go to DM camp.

Happy!

I'm also sitting in the presence of 5 men. one of which I love dearly (named Joshua P. Reifsteck). I love him.
Yup. Yup.
Bai!

<3
chillie

Much Better Day Today.

2007-06-01T19:08:00.000-04:00

I liked today.

Today was great.

I ate a tamale.
I love tamales.

Here's a few icons.
And a song.
My favorite song.

Teddy Bears' Picnic
~ Jimmy Kennedy/John W. Bratton (as sung by Bing Crosby) ~

If you go down to the woods today,
You're sure of a big surprise.
If you go down to the woods today,
You'd better go in disguise.

For ev'ry bear that ever there was
Will gather there for certain, because
Today's the day the teddy bears have their picnic.

Ev'ry teddy bear who's been good,
Is sure of a treat today.
There's lots of marvelous things to eat,
And wonderful games to play.

Beneath the trees where nobody sees,
They'll hide and seek as long as they please.
'Cause that's the way the teddy bears have their picnic.

If you go down to the woods today,
You'd better not go alone.
It's lovely down in the woods today,
But safer to stay at home.

For ev'ry bear that ever there was
Will gather there for certain, because
Today's the day the teddy bears have their picnic.

Picnic time for teddy bears.
The little teddy bears are having a lovely time today.
Watch them, catch them unawares,
And see them picnic on their holiday.

See them gaily gad about.
They love to play and shout;
They never have any care;

At six o'clock their mummies and daddies,
Will take them home to bed.
Because they're tired little teddy bears.

*** dedicated to my lovely, little sister, Heatherbear (it's her favorite song) ***

Images courtesy Jansey and Randi.

I am really enjoying life.

Cruisin' along,
~* <3>

Hoy...

2007-05-31T17:32:00.001-04:00

...today...

...was...

...humiliating...
...lonely...
...frustrating...
...off...

...but it wasn't bad...

I don't know what's been up for the past couple of weeks, but I've been struggling, kind of.

I don't understand so many things.
I want to learn more.

I've been waiting, though.
And I'm getting VERY impatient...

When is something ever going to come naturally to me???
I look around and see so many talented people that make life just look so easy!

---

*cough*

...

...and there I go again...
...one more time...
...once more...

...selling myself short.
...being selfish.
...being full of pity.
...being downright distasteful.

No one ever wants to hear complaints.

I'm pausing.

Let's have a deep breath.
Breathe in,
Breathe out.

...

Feel better yet???

...

I hope I do soon.

I'm really not in all that bad of a mood.
~* <3>

I never thought this day would come. My senior buddies, good luck!

2007-05-30T21:37:00.000-04:00

He's everything I could ask for, but nothing I deserve.

...

That's anything, and everything I have to say.

Goodnight, my loved ones.
Go to sleep.

<3,

Chillie.

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you.

2007-05-30T02:51:00.000-04:00

Well, it always seems like one is supposed to be sick for Memorial Day weekend into a busy week of auditions.
It makes sense, doesn't it???

My nose will fall off by Friday.

=]]

I hope you all don't miss it too terribly much.

Oh, and the Senior Prank was today.
Laaaaaaaammmmmme.
At least they're letting the 20 bazillion people who got suspended walk at graduation.
Water balloons don't hurt anyone.

Pshaw!!

Anyway, I made Tres Leches cake again for the Deans Office, and the Deans will be providing Jimmy John's for lunch tomorrow.

=P

Yummy!

Song time.
Ready, Set, GO!

---

You and Me
~ Lifehouse ~

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive.
I can't keep up,
And I can't back down,
I've been losing so much time.

'Cause it's you and me
And all other people,
With nothing to do,
nothing to lose.

And it's you and me
And all other people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you.

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right.
I'm tripping with words,
You got my head spinning,
I don't know where to go from here.

'Cause it's you and me,
And all other people,
With nothing to do,
Nothing to prove.

And it's you and me,
And all other people,
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you.

There's something about you, now,
I can't quite figure out.
Everything [he] does is beautiful...
Everything [he] does is right...

You and me,
And all other people,
With nothing to do,
Nothing to lose.

And it's you and me,
And all other people,
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of...

You and me,
And all of the people,
With nothing to do,
Nothing to prove,

And it's you and me,
And all other people,
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you.

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive.

Mucho
<3,

chillie!

It's a cold and it's a broken, "hallelujah."

2007-05-27T22:19:00.000-04:00

I reserve this post for the best song... EVER!
And it's because it's by Jeff Buckley.
He's a BEAST!

Hallelujah
~ Jeff Buckley ~

I heard there was a secret chord,
That David played and it pleased the Lord,
but you don't really care for music, do ya?
Well, it goes like this:
The fourth, the fifth,
The minor fall and the major lift,
The baffled king composing, "Hallelujah."

Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...

Well, your faith was strong, but you needed proof.
You saw her bathing on the roof.
Her beauty, and the moonlight overthrew ya.
She tied you to her kitchen chair,
She broke your throne, and she cut your hair,
And from your lips she drew the hallelujah.

Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...

Baby, I've been here before.
I've seen this room, and I've walked this floor.
I used to live alone before I knew you.
I've seen your flag on the marble arch,
But love is not a victory march.
It's a cold and it's a broken, "hallelujah."

Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...

Well, there was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below,
But now you never show that to me, do ya?
But remember when I moved in you?
And the Holy Dove was moving too?
And every breath we drew was "Hallelujah?"

Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...

Well, maybe there's a God above,
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you.
It's not a cry that you hear at night,
It's not somebody who's seen the light,
It's a cold and it's a broken "Hallelujah."

Hallelujah..
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...

Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...

Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...

---

Am I supposed to be feeling this immature?
Am I supposed to be this angry?
Am I supposed to lose yet one more person in my life?

God, I don't think I can count any higher than 10.

All I want is peace.
I don't want to lose another one... not one more death.

Many and sweet may be your dreams,
<3
Chillie

Hey, look! I'm alive!

2007-05-25T23:47:00.001-04:00

Wow, it really has been a while.

Many thanks for the "Happy Birthday's." I genuinely appreciated them.

I hung out with Sammy Skye tonight. It was surely wonderful!
She is so amazing. I don't know what I'd do without her.
Happy almost birthday, my love.

And now, a song. Dedicated to Josh, Sam, and Jake.
It's a favorite.

Truly Madly Deeply
~ Savage Garden ~

I'll be your dream,
I'll be your wish,
I'll be your fantasy.

I'll be your hope,
I'll be your love,
Be everything that you need.

I love you more
With every breath
Truly madly deeply do...

I will be strong
I will be faithful
'Cause I'm counting on a new beginning.

A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.

Yeah...

I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...

And when the stars
Are shining brightly
In the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish
Send it to heaven
And make you want to cry..

The tears of joy
For all the pleasure
And the certainty.

That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of
The highest powers.
In lonely hours.
The tears devour you..

I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...

Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cause it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

I'll be your dream,
I'll be your wish,
I'll be your fantasy.

I'll be your hope,
I'll be your love,
Be everything that you need.

I love you more
With every breath
Truly madly deeply do...

I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...

I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna live like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...

oh yeah... oh yeah

I love you, my Joshua.
Never forget that.

<3,
your chillie.

Hi! My name is Chillie!

2007-05-20T23:55:00.000-04:00

That's my new name, according to Josh... er, I mean Joe Shua.

Crazy week behind, crazy weeks ahead.

The musical was amazing... I mean "TAPIOCA" (Anastasia called the musical that).
It was the best show I've ever performed at OEHS.
It's sad to know that it's behind me now, but I'll move on.

Here's what's in store for this week:

- Concert Band / Wind Ensemble concert tomorrow -
- My birthday's on Tuesday! -
- But so is the Senior Awards Night! -
- Oh, and Spotlight rehearsal. -
- Wednesday = a Wind Symphony / Symphonic Band concert -
- Thursday = OEHS Choir Concert, w00t. -
- And Friday comes and Patron of the Arts are due. -

What a whopper week.

Then comes pre-grad week, with fine arts banquets, drum major auditions (I'm assuming????), rehearsals, and goodbyes.

Other than that, I think I'm all worn out.
Like majorly.

Oh, and Josh's family took me and Josh's dad out for a BIRTHDAY DINNER!
We went to Red Lobster's.
Mmmmmmmmmmm!

And yesterday, Keith and I made Tres Leches.
Yummmers.

And it's late.
So with that,
I bid thee all adieu,

~ yours truly ~
<3
Chillie

OSWEGO EAST HIGH SCHOOL PRESENTS...

2007-05-15T22:47:00.000-04:00

DAMN YANKEES!

When: Wednesday - Saturday, 5/16 - 5/19
Time: 7:00 p.m.
Cost online: $7 students, $8 adults
Cost at the door: $8 students, $9 adults

Come see us!
Purchase your tickets online today:
OEPAC.ORG

What a way to start the week!

2007-05-13T15:48:00.000-04:00

Well, I was happier until I found out about the 28 on my ACT.

Schmeh.

At least I'm going to get into college.
Maybe I'll take it a fourth and fifth time.
Maybe I'll get a better score.

Maybe I was right.
School really ain't my thing.

...

And I'm going to marry the valedictorian of Oswego East's first senior class someday.
Psh.

I feel inadequate.
Typing a paper,
~Hilary

Oh, and yesterday's picnic on the hill was one of those times where I didn't want to be with anyone else except those people. I enjoyed myself.

Seeing a shooting star last night made me fall in love with where I was at.
I didn't want to move.
I didn't want to leave.

Time stood still, frozen and unmoving.
It made me forget the world.
It made me forget I have a paper due.
Or that Asia's in Heaven now.
Or even that my birthday's in 9 days.

It made me forget.
I forgot everything unfolded in the past two days.
The past two weeks.
The past two months...

I forgot my sadness and my fears.
My regrets and my frustration.

For once in a long time,
I just laid there,
And soaked up the time.

And I didn't have to be with Josh.
Or my family.

I just got to be with my friends.

For one more time in my life,
I just wanted to stay in that very spot.

...

...For the rest of my life.

Goodnight, my loved one. Go to sleep.

2007-05-11T21:33:00.000-04:00

You know it's tech week when you haven't updated since Saturday... and it's Friday.

Well, quite honestly, I have nothing to say.

...

I mean, nothing formulated.

So much has been going on, I've been so focused...
But at the same time, I'm distracted.
I'm gone.

You know, the other day in choir we discussed Shrum's piece, "Goodnight, My Loved One."
And Mr. Barsch was talking about that line: "Goodnight, my loved one / go to sleep..."
He was saying how sometimes the best thing you can ever tell someone is to sleep.
Especially when things get tough...
He said that sometimes things are so tentative or difficult that the only thing you can do to escape your problems is to sleep.

I cannot wait to do that.

I have no words to describe how I felt last night.
I was frustrated originally, you know, due to rehearsal, my day, etc.
But then, I was low.
And I when I found out....
....that...that Asia died....
I cried.

I couldn't believe it.

And I thanked God... You know, thanked him for taking care of Asia and keeping her alive for 3 extra months. And I am glad that she's in Heaven now.

But that doesn't take away the fact that she's not here.
And I am.
That I miss her.
That I still have to wait.

It makes me sad.
I am sad.
Tired and sad.

The only thing I want....

....

The one thing I want more than anything else...

...is peace.

Stormy skies ahead, literally!

2007-05-05T17:59:00.000-04:00

So yesterday, Josh and I were thinking about what we were going to do for Patron of the Arts...
His mom suggested that we see Waubonsee Valley High School's musical.
That was a very good suggestion!

Their production was "Thoroughly Modern Millie," and it was SPECTACULAR.
I only knew two are three people from church or speech team and what not, but needless to say, it was up there with some of the musicals I've seen. The best musical I've ever seen was OHS's "Guys and Dolls," second place is tied with our "Pirates of Penzance," and this show. It was that good.

Then Josh took me out to Kendall 10 this morning to see Spiderman 3. Amazing.
I have to review it for the OEHS student newspaper, but it was part of my birthday present.

Man, it was good!

After that we went to Camille's for lunch. Tasty!
Yum yum yum.

We watched Modern Marvels on the History Channel, and then he went home.

Now I have to get some homework finished.
TTFN, ta ta for now!

~Hilary

Can YOU guess 50 iTunes songs, chosen at RANDOM?!?!?!?!

2007-05-03T22:16:00.000-04:00

* Borrowing from Freddie, adding 20 more songs *

Rules:
Put your iTunes or equivalent on random.

Post the first line from the first 50 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.

Bold out the songs when someone guesses correctly.

Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!

You have to get the song and band for it to count.

1. "There are people, and they are publishing my book."
2. "Your pretty face is not enough"
3. "All the girls in the bathroom talkin'"
4. "All aboard!!! Hahahaha"
5. "I can show you the world..."
6. "There's always that one person that will always have your heart."
7. "Are there no shadows where you are"
8. "I heard you're doing okay, but I want you to know"
9. "Something in the rain, she moves."
10. "Everytime when I look in the mirror..."
11. "Someday, when I'm awfully low, when the world is cold..."
12. "The sun is shining everyday, the clouds never get in the way"
13. "Do not get me wrong, I cannot wait for her to come home."
14. "Looking back, he sees it all.."
15. "Harry Truman, Doris Day, Red China, Johnny Ray"
16. "Hands touch, eyes meet..."
17. "This rock is tied around my ankle, this thorn is buried in my skin..."
18. "I think you know what I'm getting at, I find it so upsetting that..."
19. "But Peter, how do we get to Neverland?"
20. "Smile though your heart is aching..."
21. "The strands in your eyes, that color them wonderful..."
22. "You think I'm an ignorant savage..."
23. "The sun just slipped its note below my door..."
24. "I'm fifteen in, for a moment, caught in between 10 and 20..."
25. "I saw your sky fall down today, suddenly turned from blue to gray"
26. "Cathedral bells were tolling and our hearts sang on..."
27. "Where are we, what the hell is going on?"
28. "You are the promised kiss of springtime that makes the lonely winter..."
29. "You've been bad, you know you've been good..."
30. "Well, I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind."
31. "The dawn is breaking, a light shining through."
32. "Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking..."
33. "Tale as old as time, true as it can be..."
34. "The splendor of a king, clothed in majesty..."
35. "It's cold outside, or is that just the chill I feel inside..."
36. "You've gotta have heart, all you really need is heart..."
37. "Her face is a map of the world, is a map of the world..."
38. "When I made up my mind, and my heart along with that..."
39. "I've given up, I'm giving up slowly..."
40. "Amazing grace, how sweet the sound, that saved a wretch like me..."
41. "Hold the milk, put back the sugar, they are powerless to console."
42. "Like the sound of silence calling, I hear your voice and suddenly..."
43. "Just take a little time out with me..."
44. "How the hell did we wind up like this?"
45. "Help! I need somebody!"
46. "Hey kid, good morning, you look like an angel."
47. "Can anyone hear me, does anyone around me..."
48. "Hope dangles on a string, like slow spinning redemption."
49. "There's a place off Ocean Avenue where I used to sit and talk with you."
50. "Take a look at the mountain, stretching a mile high..."

There you go, 50 of my iTunes songs.
Enjoy guessing!!
Once you guess correctly, I will tag you.

~Hilary

He's all that I need to fall into.

2007-05-03T18:53:00.000-04:00

Teardrops on My Guitar
~ Taylor Swift ~

Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see.
That I want,
And I'm needing everything that we should be.

I'll bet she's beautiful,
That girl he talks about.
And she's got everything that I have to live without.

Drew talks to me,
I laugh cause it's so damn funny.
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me.

He says he's so in love,
He's finally got it right.
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night.

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar.
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do.

Drew walks by me,
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes,
So perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be.

She'd better hold him tight,
Give him all her love.
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause:

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar.
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do.

So I drive home alone.
As I turn out the light,
I'll put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight.

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar.
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do.
He's the time taken up,
But there's never enough.
And he's all that I need to fall into...

Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see.

---
Hrmm... Beautiful song. It reminds me of Josh, only I'm both the narrator AND the girl being sung about.

^-^

...

Well, the job thing didn't work out so well. I have to check with them again when the school year is over.
Poopy.

Well, never hurts be a little less busy...??? I guess???

[[ sigh ]]

~ H...

---

"...[he] walks by me,
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes,
So perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be."

A New Musical Coming Soon...

2007-05-02T20:43:00.001-04:00

"How to Succeed in Getting Hired For a Job... Without Really Trying."

^^ Um, that pretty much sums up my life right now, and I'm SO excited about it. ^^

I definitely got hired yesterday on the phone, after turning my application in LAST summer!
Rosati's Pizza employee, at your service.

I can't wait, people.
I'm so pumped!

Lovin' it.
~Hilary

NEW PROM PICTURES

2007-05-01T19:29:00.001-04:00

I like my boyfriend!

=)

Check it out, new pictures on my facebook.
I added some more prom pictures (courtesy Mrs. Reifsteck).

Here's the LINK!

HAMBURRRRRRRRGERRRRRRRRRRS.

2007-04-30T19:49:00.000-04:00

I really want hamburgers.
I ended my ACT essay with the word, "hamburgers."

Anyway, so today was Senior Skip Day. I was lonely.
I don't know how I'm going to take it when I'm a Senior next year...

Josh got in trouble for ditching and then returning for drama, so all of our plans for tonight fell out the window and landed on Tuesday. No biggie, I'll be fine.

We have a "date" tonight on AIM, though. Sounds lame, but I assure you, it's cute.

Oh, and during drama I had a WONDERFUL Christian conversation with a Mr. Ryan Henry today. It was one of my favorite conversations I've ever had. I'm going to miss him. This is his last week for student teaching for choir. Good news though, he got a job at an elementary in district #204 (Indian Prairie) so he'll be with us in the summertime. Plus, on Friday there is a chance that VJ will get to meet Mary, Mr. Henry's fiance.

Other good news:

MY MOMMY WILL BE A SOCIAL WORKER AT NAPERVILLE NORTH HIGH SCHOOL NEXT YEAR!

Yay!
I'm happy.

Well, I don't think I'll get hamburgers tonight. Maybe tomorrow.
Otherwise, I think I'm probably going to leave.

~ Hilary
p.s.
Prom pictures are up on my Facebook!
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THEM!

Follow-Up on Prom 2007

2007-04-29T13:52:00.001-04:00

BEST NIGHT EVER.

BEST AFTER-PARTY EVER.

BEST MORNING EVER.

BEST PROM 2007 EVER.

It was good, if you couldn't tell. Didn't feel very good for a part of it, but then it passed and I had fun.

Now off to a picnic!!!

OEHS Prom 2007

2007-04-28T11:45:00.001-04:00

It's tonight.

I'm so excited!

^-^

Off to the land of PRETTY!
~Hilary

"When I fall in love, it will be forever."

2007-04-26T19:08:00.000-04:00

"There are 8 campers (including you) going on a camping trip.
Each tent holds 2 people and their gear. How many tents will you need?"

The answer?

Negative twenty-seven point three (-27.3).... degrees.

Take that, PSAE. Take that!
Can't stand the heat?
Stop being easy.

Tart.

Pardon my French.
I left my English in my test folder.
My mistake.

Prom is almost here.
I can't wait.

Can we fast forward tomorrow?
I'm sleepy.
Too tired for my own good.

Merrrrg.
~ Hilary

"Hallelujah! Done, done my duty. Put on my travelin' shoes."

2007-04-25T17:55:00.000-04:00

He cut his hair!
It's so short!
It's so cute.

Oh man, what are am I going to do?
I am beside myself with attraction.

Prom 2007.
It's coming up.

Three days.
Three almost there days!

ACT (#3) was today. 'Twas long. As usual.

Ate Panera with Rachael, Yessie, Kit, Mike, and Adam.
Then went to Graham Crackers Comics with Mike and Adam.
And laughed.
Hard.
All along the way.
With two people that never cease to make me cry because I'm laughing so hard.

Ladie's Ensemble was today.
We're singing "Death Came A-Knockin' " by The Duhks.
And Siren.

And I actually get to go to church tonight.
I love this day.
It's better than I thought it was going to be.

Especially after yesterday, and Saturday, and a few Tuesdays ago.

Oh man.
Prom.
I'm so excited.

I can't wait for the after party either.
^-^

Life is good.
And in lieu of what has happened in the past couple of weeks, it's gettin' there.
Life is good.
Keep on livin' it.

"Hallelujah! Done, done my duty. Put on my travelin' shoes."
~Hilary

Shoes.

2007-04-23T19:31:00.001-04:00

Buying shoes always makes a woman feel good about herself!

Off buying shoes.
Let's get some shoes.

~ Hilary

Stand in the Rain
~ Superchic(k) ~

She never slows down.
She doesn't know why;
But she knows that when she's all alone,
It feels like its all coming down.

She won't turn around.
The shadows are long,
And she fears if she cries that first tear,
The tears will not stop raining down.

So stand in the rain,
Stand your ground.
Stand up when it's all crashing down.
You stand through the pain,
You won't drown.
And one day, what's lost can be found,
You stand in the rain.

She won't make a sound,
Alone in this fight with herself,
And the fear's whispering:
If she stands she'll fall down.

She wants to be found.
The only way out is through everything
She's running from,
Wants to give up and lie down.

So stand in the rain,
Stand your ground.
Stand up when it's all crashing down.
You stand through the pain,
You won't drown.
And one day, what's lost can be found,
You stand in the rain.

So stand in the rain,
Stand your ground.
Stand up when it's all crashing down.
You stand through the pain,
You won't drown.
And one day, what's lost can be found,
You stand in the rain.

So stand in the rain,
Stand your ground.
Stand up when it's all crashing down.
You stand through the pain,
You won't drown.
And one day, what's lost can be found,
You stand in the rain.

----

I miss you Sammy Skye.

And my, when it rains, how it pours.

2007-04-22T22:37:00.001-04:00

My goodness!

Somebody honestly needs to tell the sky to stop crying.
It really needs to not do that.

Today was an extremely bittersweet day, more on the bitter than the sweet side.

...

Just one thing:
I love my "family."
Not necessarily MY family.

But I love my "family."
And my "family" knows who they are.

I just want to be around people.
Mostly the people I was around today.
And people other than that, who I care about.

I love you Erin.
I love you Jared.
I love you Josh.
And Dani.
And Cavyrr.
And Lauren.
And M!DizzL3.
And everyone else I haven't named, because there are so many of you.

I really love you.
A lot.

And that's it...
That's all.
I have nothing else to say.

Goodnight and sweet dreams,
~Hilary

Be nice to me, I gave...

2007-04-20T23:07:00.000-04:00

Charlie Corpuscle says:
Be nice to me, I gave blood today.

---

And for the first time, too!

It was an interesting experience.
It also was a 3 hour experience, from the moment I got there to when I left, too.

Hrmmm.
I don't think it was supposed to be that long.

Tomorrow's a costume day.
And we have a VJ performance.
Yay.

Tonight was the Poms vs. Cheerleaders / faculty vs. seniors basketball game.
Very interesting.
Indeed.

Well, I have nothing more to say.
I think I'm going to go to sleep.
Goodnight.

Peace.
~Hilary

Animator versus Animation I & II

2007-04-19T18:57:00.001-04:00

Animator versus Animation: episode one and it's sequel.
It's HUH-LARIOUS!!!

Yay!

After school Josh and I went on a walk. It was very fun.
I don't really know why we wanted to go on a walk, because we are quite sore from the past week.
Hrrrrmmm.

I have no homework, so I am just surfin' around the internet, finding lame online games and rather amusing videos.
I really wish there was just ONE site on which ALL of this could be found, but there isn't one.

Oh well.

I am very tired and sore, as I stayed up mighty late typing an english paper.
Tonight is a very well-deserved night, though, so I can catch up on sleep and just hang.

Well, I'm going to return to my festivities of having nothing to do tonight!
~Hilary

Procrastination!

2007-04-18T17:16:00.001-04:00

To do:

- Man & Men Formal Writing Analysis
- Eat Chipotle
- Be inducted into NHS

National Honor Society induction tonight!
Huzzah!

I really should stop procrastinating.
...
Schmeh!

Oh well.

Have a good day everyone, I feel cute today.
Love <3
~ Hilary

I must have done something right.

2007-04-16T18:38:00.001-04:00

How does he do that?
He leaves butterflies in my stomach, every moment I'm with him.
It's a-m-a-z-i-n-g .

Please, never let apathy kill us.

"Come what may...
Come what may.
I will love you,
'Till my dying day."
~ Moulin Rouge

----

Must Have Done Something Right
~ Relient K ~

We should get jerseys, 'cause we make a great team.
But yours would look better than mine, cause you're out of my league.
And I know that it's so cliche to tell you that everyday
I spend with you is the new "best day" of my life.
Everyone watching us just turns away with disgust.
It's jealously; they can see that we've got it going on.

And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know you're more to me than what I know how to say.
You're okay with the way this is going to be,
'Cause this is going to be the best thing we've ever seen.

If anyone can make me a better person, you could.
All I gotta say is I must have done something good.
I came along one day and you rearranged my life.
All I gotta say is I must have done something right.
I must have done something right.

Maybe I'm just lucky cause it's hard to believe.
Believe that somebody like you'd end up with someone like me.
And I know that it's so cliche to talk about you this way,
But I'll push all my inhibitions aside.
It's so very obvious to everyone watching us,
That we have got something real good going on.

And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know you're more to me than what I know how to say.
You're okay with the way this is going to be.
This is going to be the best thing we've ever seen.

If anyone can make me a better person, you could.
All I gotta say is I must have done something good.
I came along one day and you rearranged my life.
All I gotta say is I must have done something right.
I must have done something right.
I must have done something right.

If anyone can make me a better person, you could.
All I gotta say is I must have done something good.
I came along one day and you rearranged my life.
All I gotta say is I must have done something right.
I must have done something right.

If anyone can make me a better person, you could.
All I gotta say is I must have done something good.
I came along one day and you rearranged my life.
All I gotta say is I must have done something right.
I must have done something right.
I must have done something right.
I must have done something right.
I must have done something right.

ISU guestnet wireless internet connection = love

2007-04-15T18:57:00.001-04:00

Yay!
Hello.

Greetings from my sister's Level 5 USA Gymnastics State Meet!!!

I'm currently at the Illinois State University field house.

Not only am I connected to a wall cord, but needless to say, I am also connected to the internet.
Thank you, wirelessly connected ISU!!

I'm on Josh's laptop. Oh boy!

I am showing him the ways of the gymnastics meet. What fun!
I wonder if he's bored yet.
Hrmm....

Well, anyway.
Hello!

And goodbye.
I'm done posting.
I have nothing to say.

~H!DawG

annoyed

2007-04-13T13:23:00.001-04:00

He wonders why I don't submit to the listserv...
I look around at the ten bazillion noisey things happening at one point in time at my house.

...

That's why, Mr. Query, that's why.

Having ADD sucks.

You've Got Everything to Lose...

2007-04-12T19:04:00.001-04:00

"As happens sometimes, a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment.
And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment.
Then gradually, time awakened again and moved sluggishly on..." ~ Of Mice and Men.

--------

These past three days have been... well...
Difficult.

...

When...
...when is everything going to decide to NOT be topsy turvy???

...

I want...
...I really want the sky...
...to stop crying.
Sky... please,
stop.
PLEASE stop crying.
For me...???
For us...???
Can you do that?
Do you know how to do that?
Are you able to do that?

This is Your Life
~ Switchfoot ~

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead.
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken.
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes.
This is your life, and today is all you've got now.
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have.
Don't close your eyes,
Don't close your eyes.

This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be,
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose?

Yesterday is a kid in the corner,
Yesterday is dead and over.

This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be,
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose?

Don't close your eyes,
Don't close your eyes.
Don't close your eyes,
Don't close your eyes.
Don't close your eyes.

This is your life are you who you want to be?
This is your life are you who you want to be, yeah?

This is your life, are you who you want to be, who you want to be yeah
This is your life, are you who you want to be (who you want to be)
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be,
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose?

And you had everything to lose...

Complete Orgy of Taste Buds...

2007-04-11T21:35:00.001-04:00

I just had THE MOST AMAZING & TASTEFUL meal of my entire life...

Shogun Restaurant...
A-MAZING.
I recommend it.

'Twas definitely an OOT...
That is, an orgy of taste buds.
Quite delicious!

And, being surprised by my boyfriend after a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day, it made all the BETTER!

Just for the record:
- I hate driving in the pouring ice rain during rush hour when late for a flute lesson. -
I suggest that you NEVER do that.

Not only will you miss the flute lesson, but you will nearly cost yourself your life on the way there because you are inexperienced at driving in that kind of weather AND you will be so embarrassed that you will cry the entire way to your boyfriend's house, when of course, the weather will be much better and there will be SIGNIFICANTLY LESS traffic than there was on the way there...

But hey, maybe he'll be affectionate and thoughtful and surprise you at his door with a "don't take your shoes off yet, I'm taking you somewhere" smile, a coat, and car keys like my boyfriend was when I arrived at his house.

Ah, adolescency, you never cease to get in my way...

Thanks,
~ThE H!DawG
p.s.
As to why this day was so bad, I have no idea. All I know is that I just want to be happy again........

=]]

The Best Thing...

2007-04-07T14:57:00.001-04:00

As I sit here and sip my Culver's Oreo milkshake, I reflect on the things that make me happy:

- comic books
- Josh, the boyfriend
- milkshakes made with custard
- milkshakes made with ice cream
- milkshakes
- Oreos
- Kitkat bars
- chocolate
- chicken salad with tarragon and almonds
- driving around Naperville and Oswego while chit-chatting with Adam Casey (or any of my friends)
- being skinner than I was the day before
- looking cute
- looking attractive
- missing my boyfriend, but knowing that I will get to see him in a few days
- coming up with new ways to match clothing
- Yogurt Blast Cheerios
- Raisin Bran Crunch
- dresses
- clothes
- sleep
- Star Wars party games

and above all, Jesus!

I'm quite content today.
Yesterday, my brother turned 8.
Today's his party.
I have to run errands.
Yay!

Here's the sweetest song ever...
The Best Thing
~ Relient K ~

It's been a year,
Filled with problems.
But now you're here,
Almost as if to solve them.
And I can't live in a world without you now.

All my life,
I've been searching for you.
How did I survive,
In this world before you?
'Cuz I don't wanna live another day without you now.

This is the best thing,
The best thing that could be happening.
And I think you would agree:
The best thing is that it's happening to you and me.

All I'm gonna have
Is all that you can give me.
And I'll give right back,
Everything I have in me.
'Cuz nothing ever felt as right,
As this does right now.

I'll go back to before we met.
Can I erase the past?
Try harder to forget 'cuz
Nothing will ever be as good as here and now.

'Cuz when I looked into your eyes,
And you dared to stare right back.
You should've said "Nice to meet you, I'm your other half."

And this is the best thing,
The best thing that could be happening.
And I think you would agree:
The best thing is that it's happening.

This is the best thing, the best thing,
The best thing that could be happening,
The best thing...
And I think you would agree:
The best thing is that it's happening to you and me.

Always knew
I'd find someone.
I never dreampt
It'd be like this.
You've surpassed
All that I've hoped for and ever wished.
And I'm tryin'
So hard,
With all my heart and mind,
To make your life
As good as you've made mine.

This is the best thing, the best thing.
The best thing that could be happening.
The best thing...
And I think you would agree:
The best thing is that it's happening to you and me.

The best thing is that it's happening to you and me.
The best thing is that it's happening to you and me.

The best thing, the best thing that could be happening.
The best thing, I think you would agree:
The best thing is that it's happening to you and me.

Dear God...

2007-04-04T17:17:00.001-04:00

...Why is it snowing outside???

I'm so tired, and I don't really know how I feel about that.
I don't really know how I feel about anything today.

I think I'm just feeling-less.
Because I'm tired.

Zzzzz.
Yeah, that's pretty much everything.

~Hilary

p.s. and I hate these jeans. I feel obese. Oh wait, I forgot... that's how I feel everyday!
I think that I might just eat fruits, vegetables, and baked chicken for the rest of my life. Maybe I'll just eat celery. Maybe...
Oh God, I wish I was cute, little, and sexy.

Boy, can I keep dreaming!

Sulking in the corner.
Leave something if you wanna.

SO...

2007-04-02T21:42:00.000-04:00

...Disney was pretty much amazing.

This is all I have to say...
(and only a couple people will know what I am talking about)

"I wish we could go to Africa everyday!"
~ the Cavyrrrrrrr

And:

"Tony!"
"What? I'm not a fruit!"
"No, Tony. It's what comes after the fruit..."
~ Nick, Tony, and M!DizzL3.

Man, good times.
I'm gonna miss it.
Only 41 more days until the end of school!

Today's the Day!!!

2007-03-27T10:25:00.001-04:00

DISNEY WORLD,
HERE WE COME.

SPRING BREAK 'o7, BABY...

...YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT!

OnE HaWt SpRiNg BrEaK!

2007-03-26T10:36:00.001-04:00

So I practically had THE MOST amazing day yesterday.

=]]

This is what I love::
~ Tip
~ The Riverwalk
~ Downtown Naperville.
~ Ben & Jerry's Dave Matthew's Band Brownies!

Huzzah!

And Rosati's pizza.
And driving.
And blasting music in my ghetto van with the windows rolled down.
And Arizona Iced Green Tea (with Ginseng!)
And Dry Erase Boards
And my family
And Josh.

Oh wait, there's more!

And I love my grandma (she is the coolest person in the universe, next to Tip)
And I love Tracy.
And I love everything that's made this the BEST spring break EVER!

Oh, and by the way::
[[ p.s. 1 day 7 hours 24 minutes !! ]]

Shoe Carnival... my bff!

2007-03-24T21:29:00.000-04:00

White and Black Fubu Mansi ::
$50.

The price I got them at Shoe Carnival?
$20.

I love stealing deals.
^-^

Less than 3 days away...
~Hilary
p.s. I'm eating grilled cheese (that the hubby made), tomato soup, and watching The Illusionist. I can't wait!

It's the Best Day Ever!

2007-03-23T19:28:00.000-04:00

No, seriously it was!

I got accepted into the OEHS Chapter of National Honor Society!
It makes me very pleased.

And then...

My counselor called me down (for the second time this week) and told me that I am an office runner (finally!). Before, I was put in foods (I didn't want to be in foods), then my counselor said that I might've been able to have been an office aide, then she called me down earlier this week to tell me that I wasn't able to be one (it's normally for seniors only)... so I was put back into foods.

Then apparently, there was a student whose schedule could only fit Foods, and they knew I wanted to be an office runner, so they let me drop the class and gave that spot to the student, thus making me uber happy!!!

AND ON TOP OF ALL OF THAT, IT'S SPRING BREAK!!!!
FINALLY!

So, it's less than four days until I leave for Disney.
Happiness!

I'm excited for this weekend.
I get to hang out with Josh, Tip, and M!DizzL3.
What more could I ask for?!

I have to be back at school in fourteen and a half hours for a final band rehearsal.
What fun!

Well, I'm off doing whatever!
Cheerio!

~H!DawG

AHHHH!

2007-03-22T17:29:00.000-04:00

Oh my goodness...
I'm so excited.
I cannot hold an attention for my life.

!!!

A Paper to Write and a Trip to Disney soon!

2007-03-21T22:07:00.000-04:00

Less than one week 'til Disney and I can't contain myself.
What am I going to do on Monday?
I think I'll probably explode!

On Friday, everyone is going to be SO squirrelly!!
We are going to be able to focus for like -.05873 seconds.
I'm down with that.

=]]

Merrrrrg.
Can't wait.
[[ dances ]]

Oh, and I love the Joshua.
He looked absolutely gorgeous today.
You couldn't even tell that he was dating someone like me!

=]]

I have a paper to type.
Better go get on that.
Hrmmm.

Maybe later.
~ H to the izzle

Whoa...

2007-03-17T11:14:00.000-04:00

I've posted 100 times.

...

This would be the 101st.

O.o!
Neato!
~Hilary

Happy Pi Day [[ 3.14 ]]!!!

2007-03-14T21:32:00.000-04:00

Happy Pi Day [[ 3.14 ]]!!!

Crazy mad style, this week has been.
SO busy!
Well, Damn Yankees started this week.
It's been good.

Had a hardcore dancing day today.
^-^
Yessss!

Well anyway, so Mr. Joshua is so cute.
I love that boy.

Yesterday was a VERY NICE half day.
Josh and I went to Panda Express.
Then we came home.
And I practiced mase.
It was pretty sweet.
Then it was off to Yankees rehearsal.
Then dinner.
Then Spotlight.
Then ACT prep class.

=]]

And then we had today.

And then tomorrow, we have a Wind Symphony field trip to Northwestern University!! We have a clinic and then we're going to explore Evanston.
Yay!

Tomorrow is also our one year and five monthiversary.
It's so neat knowing that we've almost made it a year and a half.
I love that boy.

Anyway, in honor of that, he wants to take me out to Chipotle.
MMMMM!
Then on Saturday, he's taking me to see 300.
I cannot wait.
And now...

...

it's time to leave.
So.
I leave you.
With:
A song:

~ Nobody Needs to Know ~
The Last Five Years

JAMIE
Hey, kid - good morning,
You look like an angel.
I don't remember when we fell asleep.
We should get up, kid.
Cathy is waiting...

Look at us, lying here,
Dreaming, pretending.
I made a promise and I took a vow.
I wrote a story,
And we changed the ending.
Cathy, just look at me now!

Hold on, facts are facts!
Just relax, lay low.
All right, the panic recedes:
Nobody needs to know.

Mmmmm.

Put on my armor,
I'm off to Ohio.
Back into battle 'till
I don't know when.
Swearing to her that I was
Never with you,
And praying I"ll hold you again.

Hold on, clip these wings -
Things get out of hand.
All right, it's over, it's done,
No one will understand.
No one will understand...

We build a tree house,
I keep it from shaking.
Little more glue every time that it breaks.
Perfectly balanced,
And then I start making
Conscious, deliberate mistakes.

All that I ask for
Is one little corner.
One private room
At the back of my heart.
Tell her I found one,
She sends out battalions
To claim it and blow it apart.

I grip and she grips,
And faster we're sliding.
Sliding and spilling,
And what can I do?
Come back to bed, kid.
Take me inside you.
I promise I won't lie to you.

Hold on, don't cry yet.
I won't let you go.
All right - the panic recedes.
All right - everyone bleeds.
All right - I get what I need.
And nobody needs to know.
Nobody needs to know...

And since I have to be in love with someone,
Since I need to be in love with someone,
Maybe I could be in love with someone,
Like you...

Hrm. Love that song.
It's good.
I love you Josh.
[[ hugs ]]

Reflect upon it.
~Hil

Nice Day and New Clothes

2007-03-11T01:16:00.001-04:00

Solo & Ensemble was today!
It was alright.
It wasn't bad for not practicing it for the past week due to sickness.

I also had Chipotle for lunch.
I recommend it to you if you have a stuffy nose.
Today was the second time it has cleared up my sinuses.
And it's very tasty!

I also went to the mall.

Definitely something I shouldn't do with my mom. lol.
^-^
Well, we went there intent on getting a new filter for our water thingy on our refrigerator.
We got it!
But we also went to Charlotte Russe and Claire's as well.

I got two cute shirts, two matching headbands, and blue glass pearls with matching earrings.
=]]
Hilary just improved her wardrobe today!

Not like anyone ever reads this anymore, but I also got to see my amazing, wonderful guy.
It was very nice outside today, so we threw the Nerf Vortex Football around a little bit.
Well...
Our grass is still wet from the rain.

Guess who found that out the hard way?!

[[ points to self ]]

I slipped and fell and my pants were all soggy.

Oops. Whoopsie daisy!
=//

It was funny though.

Anyway, I've got to finish a paper because I'm hangin' with Joshua tomorrow.
=]]
Double w00t!
~Hilary

Damn Yankees

2007-03-09T20:11:00.000-05:00

Miss Weston.

At your service.

=]

Still sick.
But getting there.

Heh, at least it's a weekend.

Oh, and I love E. Dunne for helping me live today.
DayQuil = today's life source

Home. Sick.

2007-03-08T13:54:00.000-05:00

I stayed home sick today...
I woke up around 11.

My grandma made us some fried eggs and toast, buttered with strawberry jelly.
Mmmm. It was very tasty.

I should be home sick more often.

It feels weird not being at school for the first time in my life because I am sick...

...

Damn Yankees cast list goes up today.
Hit the callbacks list yesterday.
Had a band concert.
Pretty much died.

Yep.
This week was the most inconvenient time to get sick.

Well, pray for me.
And pray that I get caught up.
Block scheduling.
Pfft.
'Twill be the death of me.

Zip - a - dee - doo - dah!

2007-03-05T23:48:00.001-05:00

I am supposed to be doing everything but updating my blogs.
But that's alright because I'd just like to say this:

School is going to consume my soul for the next three weeks leading up to Spring Break and Disney.
I don't think I have one day of a break.
... And that's a lot even without the possibility of a musical!

How 'bout dem apples?
As to the auditions -> I wish I hadn't a cough today. But it went alright.

Otherwise, I am pretty stinkin' busy, so I should probably head off and finish reading AP US GOV.
I bid thee goodnight.

Oh, and Josh and I had a really good talk tonight.
My goodness, I love that boy.

[[ beams ]]
And I haven't done that in a while!
^-^
LoViNg YoU <3,
~Hilary

IHSA REGIONALS

2007-03-01T02:05:00.000-05:00

A four point loss...
4 measly points!

Well, here's to this year.
You boys played hard.

~Hilary

TECHNO!

2007-02-22T23:21:00.000-05:00

How I love techno music!
Goodnight,

LoVe <3.
~Hilary

Yay!

2007-02-20T01:30:00.001-05:00

IT'S DONE!
THE SOUNDTRACK OF A LIFETIME IS FINALLY FINISHED.
AT LAST!!!

Good night!
ZzZzZzZzzzz....

Good FOOD!

2007-02-16T22:06:00.001-05:00

There has been a lot of yummy food involved in this week.
Wednesday was Giordano's; and though our pizza was burnt, it was still tasty.
Yesterday was Chipotle, and that, my dears, was indeed delicious.
Oh, and I had some pretty sweet pie, may I say that it was the BEST pie I have ever tasted.
Today was Panda Express, and that was delicious too.

This week has also been the week of bloody noses too.

Not like any of you really wanted to know that, or was interested in that information, I was just updating you on my life. Huzzah.

This weekend is a loverly one, too, if I do say so myself.
Today was a 1/2 day, and we were dismissed at 11 a.m.
I hung out with Josh.
And he went to a college audition at Concordia (the college, I might add, where the Matt West concert was 3 years ago... and I have a song by Mark Schultz that I will be posting later on...)
I also had VJ, which was pretty fun today.
Drove LB.
Yeah.

Tomorrow, Zach Bare is coming over to help me figure out the whole cd disk burning thing, because I need a disk burned for English. No, I am not inept at burning cd's. The cd burner is on the ghetto compy, and my iTunes music is on the good compy. It doesn't like it when I transfer the songs, even when I enable my iPod for disk use. It's quite obnoxious.

Then, on Sunday, I am chizzillin' with my boy. It shall be fun.

Monday I have a doctor's appointment, and then Katherine is coming over so we can figure out duet stuff for Solo & Ensemble.

AND THAT'S THE WEEKEND! w00t
I am very happy.
And tired.
But anyway...
Elaborating on the song thing as mentioned above (the Concordia thing)...
So when I went to Concordia to see Matt West with Sammy Skye, Mark Schultz was opening for him. And he told us about this song that he was writing called "Walking Her Home." It was SO cute, it was about this guy who starts dating this girl, and her dad wants him to bring her home safe and stuff... I think I even made a post about it with my old blog:
"...He also sang us part of a song that he is developing for his next album and it's called He Was Walking Her Home. It started as a boy and a girl going on their first date and the girl's dad told the guy to never leave her side or let her go. So then there was a chorus and the last verse was when they were in the nursing home. and she was like 92 and it says how she was outside the guys room and he had never left her and it was SOOOOO sweet and I can't wait til it comes out because I think it will be very sweet and tearful... anyway..."
Yeah... [[ reflective sigh ]]
So three years later, on a certain snow day (*cough cough* last Tuesday *cough cough* ), I called my Sammy Skye, and she told me that she heard it on the radio. And I bought the song off iTunes, and it is one of the most beautifully written songs I have ever heard in my lifetime. I heard it, and I began to cry.
So, on behalf of my tears, I present you with the lyrics to the song, "Walking Her Home":

Walking Her Home
~ Mark Schultz ~

Looking back,
He sees it all.
It was her first date the night he came to call.

Her dad said, “Son,
Have her home on time,
And promise me you’ll never leave her side.”
He took her to a show in town,
And he was ten feet off the ground.

He was walking her home,
And holding her hand.
Oh, the way she smiled it stole the breath right out of him.
Down that old road,
With the stars up above.
He remembers where he was the night he fell in love.
He was walking her home.

Ten more years and a waiting room,
At half past one,
And the doctor said, “Come in and meet your son.”

His knees went weak,
When he saw his wife.
She was smiling as she said, “He’s got your eyes.”
And as she slept he held her tight.
His mind went back to that first night.

He walked her through the best days of her life,
Sixty years together and he never left her side.

A nursing home,
At eighty-five,
And the doctor said it could be her last night.
And the nurse said, “Oh
Should we tell him now?
Or should he wait until the morning to find out?”

But when they checked her room that night,
He was laying by her side.

Oh, he was walking her home,
And holding her hand.
Oh, the way she smiled when he said, “This is not the end.”
And just for a while, they were eighteen,
And she was still more beautiful to him than anything.
He was walking her home.
He was walking her home.

Looking back,
He sees it all.
It was her first date, the night he came to call.

Oh my goodness, I love that song. I urge you to look that song up on iTunes.
Lord, I am so happy.
Thank you for giving me everything.

It's all I've ever asked for,
And all I'll ever need.
L-O-V-E.
That's how it's spelled.
<3,
~Hilary

Snow day!!! ... again!

2007-02-13T17:10:00.000-05:00

SNOW DAY!
Take 2.

I think it's for the best... so we can collect our thoughts, and get back into the swing of things.
I wonder what I'm going to do today....
SOUNDTRACK OF A LIFETIME!
w00t.

That's it.
That's everything.
I love you.

Happy Snow Day-ing!!!

LoVe <3
~Hilary

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

2007-02-12T22:02:00.000-05:00

Everybody seemed like they were in quite a haze today.
And that was only at Oswego East.
I can't even imagine how it was at OHS.

Praying for the heaviness to be lifted,
Catch'a on the flipside,

LoVe <3
~Hilary

Chasing Cars
~ Snow Patrol ~

We'll do it all,
Everything,
On our own.

We don't need
Anything,
Or anyone.

If I lay here;
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel.

Those three words
Are said too much;
They're not enough.

If I lay here;
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told.
Before we get too old,
Show me a garden that's bursting into life.

Let's waste time,
Chasing cars
Around our heads.

I need your grace,
To remind me
To find my own.

If I lay here;
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told.
Before we get too old,
Show me a garden that's bursting into life.

All that I am;
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes.
They're all I can see.

I don't know where,
Confused about how as well.
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all.

If I lay here;
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Ready? Set. CHINESE FOOD!

2007-02-10T15:45:00.000-05:00

Yum yum, Chinese food for my grandma's birthday!

Tonight's the night.
The night for the Turn-a-bout dance.

You know what's funny?
I'm actually kind of worried that what I've got planned won't go right.

Which is totally weird,
Because I'm almost 100% sure that even if everything was a disaster,
Josh wouldn't really mind it all that much.

Why?
I don't know.
Mayyyybe beecause he loooooooves me.

And that makes me happy and at peace.

[[ sigh of content ]]

I am in a good mood.
=)

And I can't wait for CHINESE FOOD!

The Land of Many Victories!

2007-02-04T00:43:00.000-05:00

Last night:

OEHS Wolves vs OHS Panthers.
Final Score: 50 - 46,Wolves.

Today for Speech:
Pwn'd Regionals.

Illini won, as well.

TOMORROW'S FORECAST?
A hearty BEARS win!!!

----

Today was a pretty fun day. I ACTUALLY got to sleep late, I earned money, and got to go with Josh to his aunt's house in Naperville.

Oh, and I also got my hair CUT!!
It looks uber cute x 5 million.

Anyway, we played on PS2 and watched the Illini game. We ate delicious food, as well.
Huzzah!

Well, I love Josh.

Tomorrow I am going to watch the Super Bowl and his house.
I cannot wait.

Waitin' for the Bears to W-I-N!

Oh, and Colts? -
Count
On
Losing
The
Super Bowl

BEARS = PWNAGE!

2007-01-21T20:01:00.000-05:00

BEARS to SUPER BOWL XLI!!

I have been at a gymnastics meet all day... Mrawr.
My sister did qualify for state though, so I'm proud of her.

Tomorrow, I will be decked out in orange and blue. Huzzah!
Oh, and yesterday we did VERY well at the conference speech meet. We pwned. 1st place as a team with at least one person in every event breaking finals (most broke 2). Yes.

But now I have to prepare for new classes tomorrow.
They are as follows:

0 - Early Bird Strength and Speed Training - Jurkovich
1 - Spanish 4 - Lopez
2 - Wind Symphony/ A Cappella Choir - Leeb/Barsch - Blue/Silver
3 (3rd quarter) - AP U.S. Government - Hurt
3 (4th quarter) - Foods - (don't know teacher)
4 - Accelerated Honors English 3 - Query

AHH!
And I have to prepare The Great Gatsby for English and I have some reading/taking of notes to do for AP US GOV.
Yay for burning the candle at both ends and not having ANY time to do things!!

~Hilary

And the Boy's Varsity Basketball Team puts up another WIN!!!

2007-01-19T21:52:00.001-05:00

63 to 48. Wolves.
That's what I call a 15 point lead.
That's what I call pwnage.

And we had a few verbal run-ins with Morris' cheerleaders.
Funny thing is...
We have a speech meet tomorrow at Morris.
^-^
Yay for a 18-1 record!!
Huzzah!

Prayer Request

2007-01-15T23:47:00.001-05:00

Well, I'm slightly frustrated.
And slightly stressed out.
I just can't wait for this week to be over, I hate all of the end of the semester junk I am doing.

Mrrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaawwwwwg!

I had fun today, though.
It was really fun.

We watched Castle in the Sky, an anime movie. It was really good. We were also going to watch Spirited Away, but we didn't have time. Poopy. But still, yeah. So if any of you ever want to get me something special, I would like Howl's Moving Castle, Castle in the Sky, and Spirited Away... Just for the record...

But after we were done watching the movie, Nick-at-Nite was on, and Full House was on.
It was a really sad Full House. It was the episode where Jesse's grandpa dies, and everyone's really sad about it. And I don't really know what it was, but I just randomly started crying.

Well, I do know what it was.
This past week was an emotional rollercoaster (I'm good now) due to some personal stuff.
Then today my sister got a phone call from one of her little buddies from Kids Connection at church.

You see, there's this really cute girl named Asia. Asia is partly deaf and has (I guess) some severe heart problems. Well, over the past couple of years, she has grown rather close to Heather, my sister and vice versa. I suppose that the past two weeks, Asia was ill, as she was not at church. It turns out that she was sick, and this week she was hospitalized. Sadly, the doctors say that she has only 2% of her heart left, and she probably isn't going to make it. She was allowed to return home today, and was very restless and lonely and wanted to talk to Heather. So she called her and they talked.

It was very difficult for Heather to speak with her, knowing what we knew, and knowing that Asia probably did not understand.

It was hard on me too, because I know Asia, and she is so sweet.

I just hate that kind of pain.
But it's part of life, and it can only make us stronger.

I do have a request though.
I would like for anyone who reads this post to say a small prayer for Asia.
I do know that she is saved, and I will see her in Heaven.
She is still with us, and I would like to pray for her.

For me?

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You know, Josh says that we shouldn't cry about people who are saved, because we will see them again. I think that it's okay to express emotion for someone. Even though you will get to see them again, it doesn't hurt to shed a few tears. You will miss them. I cry when I miss people. The people we should cry over, though, are those who are not saved. That makes sense.

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Well, I'm spent.
I really want to sleep now.

Good news: I have a voice now, and I don't sound like a man going through puberty anymore!!!
Wish me luck and blessings,
~Hilary

Something random...

2007-01-14T18:59:00.000-05:00

A SHORT STORY....
One day, you were walking down the street when you giggled. And so you died laughing. But then, you went to heaven. And it turned out to be another one of your "episodes." So now you like singing a lot.

Thank you random quiz.

^-^

Guess what?

!!**one year**!!
:: three months ::
tomorrow

w00t!

~Brand New Colony~
The Postal Service
I'll be the grapes fermented,
Bottled and served,
With the table set,
In my finest suit,
Like a perfect gentleman.

I'll be the fire escape,
That's bolted to the ancient brick,
Where you will sit,
And contemplate your day.

I'll be the waterwings,
That save you if you
Start drowning in
An open tab,
When your judgement's on the brink.

I'll be the phonograph,
That plays your favorite
Albums back,
As you're lying there,
Drifting off to sleep...
Drifting off to sleep...

I'll be the platform shoes,
And undo what heredity's
Done to you;
You won't have to strain
To look into
My eyes...
My eyes...

I'll be your winter coat,
Buttoned and zipped,
Straight to the throat,
With the collar up,
So you won't catch a cold.

I want to take you far,
From the cynics in this town,
And kiss you on the mouth.
We'll cut our bodies free,
From the tethers of this scene.
Start a brand new colony.

Where everything will change.
We'll give ourselves new names.
Identities erased.
The sun will heat the grounds,
Under our bare feet,
n this brand new colony,
Brand new colony.

Everything will change,
Ooh.
Everything will change,
Ooh.
Everything will change,
Ooh.

Man, I love that song!

VEGETARIAN!!!

2007-01-09T20:10:00.000-05:00

So I think I'm officially deciding to go vegetarian...
Let's see how long this one lasts...

From the all-out-of-idea'd girl,

~Hilary

3... 2... 1.

2006-12-31T17:29:00.000-05:00

Happy New Year!

It's Almost Time

2006-12-25T00:25:00.000-05:00

The anticipation is killing me....

Aaaaagggghhhh!

At Last!

2006-12-22T19:27:00.000-05:00

Finally, it's here.

And I'm diggin' it so far.

So far it's been partying and getting little sleep at night, but lots of sleep in the day.
And Japanese High School Bands and hanging with the boyfriend, whose house I am at as I type.

And I got "Devil in the White City" at the Speech Team Holiday Party And Book Exchange at Fruits' house yesterday. Yessss.

The forecast?

Well, sadly, no snow for the holiday, but there is some sleeping, opening presents, and a warning for a lame Hilary. Oh, and bringing in the New Year.

I can't wait.
Oh boy!

Well, I'm going to go back to doing mindless activities (i.e. Sims, Wii, and watching movies). Thank you God for break.

Toodles!