I wonder what it is....

I wonder what it is that keeps me going everyday.
What makes me smile so much.
What makes me laugh.
I wonder what it is that makes me want to get up and go to school.
Just so I can talk to those I talk to.
And laugh with those I laugh with.
I wonder what it is that lets me love life.
That lets me let go of all the restraints.
That lets me not care of what the risks are.
That lets me reach out to someone and not let others' perspectives get in the way.
I wonder what it is.
I really wonder what it is...


I feel so content right now....
But it was, for a minute, like I was bummed, for no particular reason, really sad...
And then all of a sudden, I felt really, really happy, and thankful that I'm alive and stuff
I have the greatest friends in the whole entire world....
And that Josh's my boyfriend and we've lasted 2 months
And that everything's going the right direction towards my happy ending....

It feels like nothing could possibly ever go wrong.
I don't know what it is, but I hope it's something good.
And I have faith that it will be.