Goodnight, my loved one. Go to sleep.

You know it's tech week when you haven't updated since Saturday... and it's Friday.

Well, quite honestly, I have nothing to say.

...

I mean, nothing formulated.

So much has been going on, I've been so focused...
But at the same time, I'm distracted.
I'm gone.

You know, the other day in choir we discussed Shrum's piece, "Goodnight, My Loved One."
And Mr. Barsch was talking about that line: "Goodnight, my loved one / go to sleep..."
He was saying how sometimes the best thing you can ever tell someone is to sleep.
Especially when things get tough...
He said that sometimes things are so tentative or difficult that the only thing you can do to escape your problems is to sleep.

I cannot wait to do that.

I have no words to describe how I felt last night.
I was frustrated originally, you know, due to rehearsal, my day, etc.
But then, I was low.
And I when I found out....
....that...that Asia died....
I cried.

I couldn't believe it.

And I thanked God... You know, thanked him for taking care of Asia and keeping her alive for 3 extra months. And I am glad that she's in Heaven now.

But that doesn't take away the fact that she's not here.
And I am.
That I miss her.
That I still have to wait.

It makes me sad.
I am sad.
Tired and sad.

The only thing I want....

....

The one thing I want more than anything else...

...is peace.