If you could only see how this has affected me, then maybe you'd understand.

But I don't blame you for hating me.
I can't blame you for hating me.

I hurt you.

...
You Know Where To Find Me
~ Matthew West ~

I saw your sky fall down today.
Suddenly turned from blue to gray,
Till one by one, the raindrops turned to tears upon your face.
Wish there was something I could do,
Wish I could ease the pain from you.

But I've never felt so helpless.

It's like you're drowning right in front of me,
And I'm reaching out,
But you can't see.
There's something holding onto you so tight.
So I guess this is all I'll say to you tonight...

And it's my fault.

Still...

If you ever need me,
You know where to find me.
I will be waiting,
Where I've always been.
If you ever need me,
You know where to find me.
I have never left you,
I'm where I've always been.

Right by your side.
I'm right by your side...

I'm in as much disbelief as you are.
I can't believe that I did that.
I can't believe that I made that choice.

But, what's done is done.

I will have to live with the consequences.
Nothing I say or do can take regret away.

If I could, I would erase that moment.
I would have made a better decision.

I've failed you one more time.
And I have no more extra continues left.

It's okay.
It's going to be all right.
God will make it better.

...The whole wide world is on [my] back.
And the strength [I] need is the strength [I] lack.
...[I'm] in a crowd but all alone,
...[I] can't stay here, but [I] can't go home.
...[I] can't answer all the "why's".
...[I'm] too tired to reach that high.

[But I] need to remember:

If [I] ever need Him,
[I] know where to find Him.
He will be waiting,
Where He's always been.

If [I] ever need Him,
[I] know where to find Him.
He has never left [me],
He's where He's always been.

He's right by [my] side.
He's right by [my] side
He's right by [my] side.

And I'm so blessed because I still get you.

I love you.

And I'm sorry.