A Little Less Than Worse

Alrighty, here's another post....

OHS vs. OEHS football game was today!!!!!!
Guess what happened!?!

.....

We lost.

And Sam now has a date to Fall Frenzie. P-shaw. . . homecoming is so overrated.

This was basically to say (or complain) that I just had the worst day today, but my little bear and St. Master and Michaeloni were just fine. . . I <3's>

My day was horrible, and I will not go into details. . . I really didn't have much fun at the game, besides a few things, and I love Chas because he's always there to listen, even when you don't want anyone to. . . I love how he forces things out of you because he cares that much and wants to know that bad. . . I love how he gives you these big Chas hugs that picks you up off the ground and squeezes you until you can't breathe. . . I got 2 of those today! 1 from Chas and 1 from Mike. . . and the other day my bear gave me a hug like that too.
anyway, I love how Chas always makes you feel better, even if you don't want to... and how Zachy always makes me smile.

^^ ThOsE aRe tHe PeOpLe i LiVe foR! ! !

Anyway, so I guess that was the highlight-ness of my day, other than that, it was pretty sucky, I mean, I'm atrociously sicker than sick, and my arm hurts like HeCk!

And I just need to go sit down and think about what in the world's bothering me, because I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT IT IS!

I want to be the one that always makes you smile, even if I can't smile on my own.

Lonely, I'm so lonely!

Sorry folks, about the post below. . . I was just venting, and everything is cooler than ice. . . so just forget about it, alright???

I'm not sure what's been up with me lately, I've been melancholy, but that's overreaction along with overstatement, so don't worry about it. . .

Today, I was reading through some stuff, like old AIM/msn convos and crapola, and I came across this blurb from one of my friends' Xangas. . . Something I had saved because I really had liked it. . .

Sitting on your bed in the middle of the night staring up at the stars and listening to your favorite song can make you feel so small...just looking at the stars, how they light, how many there are and thinking about how far away they are...just makes you feel so unimportant. you realize how many people they’re are in the world and how you’ll never meet half of them...how the fact that I’m a girl going to school in OEHS doesn’t matter to almost all of them, just makes you feel alone.

It's just some honest to goodness feelings. . . everyone thinks. . . don't deny it. . .I guess I feel lonely right now. . . I feel far away, distant from all, especially God. . . I want to take acceptance and drive a knife through it and murder it. . . High school is so full of melodramatic madness and worries. . . acceptance is just something we could do without. The acceptance factor should be shot and beaten. . . it should become a martyr of the world, Satan, and evil.

Okay, and this post was a vent too. So here's a disclaimer:: ThIs bLoG iS uSeD tO oVeReXaGgErAte ThInGs aNd tO LeT tHiNgS oUt oF mY sYsTeM. . . wItHoUt tHiS bLoG oR mY xAnGa, i tHiNk mY hEaD wOuLd eXpLoDe 3 tImEs OvEr. . .

EnJoY. . . eNtEr aT oWn rIsK. . .

To Apathetic to Care about a Title

Things are beginning to get rocky again. . . with everything. . . my goodness, why can't humans just leave things alone. . .

It's making me sad, melancholy, and I really am starting to wonder: is it really worth for all that it is?? Of course, and those you fall madly in love with --who says the path isn't rocky? ::sigh:: if only, if only. . .

I love every minute we're together--then I am reminded-- we're merely friends. The wonderous days are in the past. This is the PRESENT. It will never be. Ever. Every moment I spend with " ", I treasure. But I ponder, does " " feel the same?? Who knows. To lose " " would be by biggest enemy, my pain, my loss. And " ". I love " ", I really do. But nothing will ever be fine. Never. I just want to hold " " forever in my arms and be lost in a world where nothing matters anymore. Yes. So it will be done. We'll be okay... It's moving along. . . the only way to improvement is to take it step by step, slowly walking, holding hands, using the buddy-system. . . baby steps, baby steps. . . Woah, be careful! Don't fall. . . Here let me help you up. . .

Don't forget me God, I'm still here! I know, it's selfish. I can't stand selfishness.

It's a difficult road to travel, but I'm willing to sacrifice my comfort. Love is a strong word that people toss around uselessly. . . I am not one of those people.

~Anonymous~

AwAiTs ThE rEsuLtS

I can't wait until Fruits posts the MacBeth cast list tomorrow!

[[ pants ]] [[ runs around room ]]

. . . . . . . and the rest of the household is a war-zone between parent and son...
My goodness family can get obnoxious. . .

RaWr!

School's in, Time for a fresh, new start

Yay! 3rd day of school's come and gone, and my, was it grand.

WE GOT COMCAST HIGH SPEED INTERNET TODAY! whoopee!!!

Anyway, MacBeth Info meeting is tomorrow and I'm so nervous about auditions because SOOO many people are trying out for MacBeth.
Tryouts are Thursday and Friday. . . [[ shivers ]] I hope I make it.
If I don't, then I'll be on light crew and stalk zach around everywhere. Fun! Just kidding. But I'm doing lights if I don't score a part.

Well, that's all for the Hil-files for now, I have to finish up some homework that could take days (( well, oh, okay, hee hee, maybe not, just a few hours )) for Poli Sci, and well, I'm a perfectionist so I might as well be getting that done instead of procrastinating, which I do best.

Catch ya all on the flip side, yo!

~Hil